Kat's world

2009-10-08T20:57:00.002+08:00

finally started my property tax course... a get a way for a few days.. not too bad a deal but it comes with string attached tat is exams!
still i am really glad... love to attend course =)

3 weeks since gerald's death... ben has left n started work yesterday so many changes but i am still the same... life still move on...

wish me gd luck... apply for balance sales flat.. only 1 property tat we like but more than 150 ppl eyeing for it as at last fri...

looking forward to see ah wen n mao next wed and my darling sharon...

there maybe nth interesting but i am happy with my life... hopeful for a better day eah day swiber n genting pls shine ur lights.... u r my hope n my strength $$$$$$$$$

2009-09-27T18:11:00.003+08:00

what is life? the special thing abt living is perhaps because it is vulnerable..

when u realise that it is vulnerable than u appreciate life and the breathe that you breathe.

I never realise that life is that vulnerable and have taken it for granted....

Someone i known for very long have passed on... he has left just like tat... I think off those memories but the fact is he has left... just like tat without any trace... He was just taken away without any signs or warning... we had no chance to response it was just so sudden... not as thou he wants to leave but he had no choice...

He may be a good swimmer and love diving but when the angels of death choose to bring him away its just at the snip of the fingers... the world continues to turn but friends hope time would freeze at the moment they last had with him... memories when his body surface will flood his love ones... They will try their best to move on but it continues to be a black cloud that hovers over them...

i found a picture of him as i was searching thru some old photos....

I know you will always holds a place in the heart of many...
Time may pass, people may fade away but the memories will remains forever and nothing can ever steal or destroy it...

Bless you!

2009-09-13T12:43:00.003+08:00

i kinda forgot when was the last time i blog and almost forgotten tat i owns a blog....
countless of short trip this year... not to mention i am going genting the coming sat and batam the next fri... siew yen has got married and graduated....

yiwen has went for her long awaited japan trip... we went bkk tgt after our debut HK trip which was 2 yrs ago...

Ate buffalo wings...

Exams results was OUT! and i'm glad i clear all the 5 modules thou the results was lousy... went for massage and gossipping session with tiff...

so many things to be listed out... but i cant remember all already...

the latest is steve's birthday... I am so sorry that i totally forgot about it despite he reminding me since thur night.... and i promise to sms him at 12 mid-night but i failed.... and i forgot abt it on firday morning until he reminded me... so to make up for my forgetfulness... i made it know to everyone tat it was steve's birthday and he got the greeting from everyone seating around him...

Murthi even brought a cake for him and we plan a surprise celebration at APEX for him... =)

Went to out with steve, ah boon, aloy, yvonne and william on sat.....
they woke up at dunno what time to walk the hort park.... whahahaha... which obviously i did not go... so met them at vivo city around 12 plus... we walk around vivo and intended to buy our boat ride to batam for the following week but did not as we dun have our passport number =(

we went mount faber thinking of playing bowling but to our surprise there was an event there hence we had to leave... but out HANABI booking was at 6pm we had no where to go... so we tot of going to serene center to eat ice cream...

when going to the car park all steve's best friend "xiao qiang" started crawling out from his car.... so i betrayed him and hop to aloy's car.... and i know steve scolded me for being "wang en fu yi" he drove me to mount faber from habour front but for a few small little insect i ran abandon his car...

we ended at IKEA instead to see things for our IRRC event. =) buy 4D... and EAT!

2009-03-22T13:30:00.006+08:00

hee... long oustanding post...
ok wiwi this is post is for u since u complained that i have eaten and enjoy V day but no graditute from me... Anyway i have got all the photos up... dunno too many things lazy to write... just caption will do? Its a lazy sunday... Had enjoy my night yesterday farewell session for Bryan... with ben matthew n aloy... we went O bar for a drink... those guys drank alot... Cheer up buddies....

above are the cute LITTLE BEAR and flowers from wiwi....

But when we were at singapore flyer.... heex... my bear is nth compare to someone elses....

After singapore flyer ride.... we went for fish spa... woo... what an experience... it was quite an enjoyment after all..

we went to meltz for dinner....

see the fatty bum bum... eat until the tummy so big...

2009-01-28T15:54:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year...

this is my first post for the new year...

Exams is coming.... Haiz....

Thou it is only less than a month in 2009 but life has been BUSY!!!!!!
We were rushing out hamper for CNY and thankfully for HIS provident even in the time of this money crisis around....

We had our badminton session... which a blunter took place my booking was lost and last min we are trying to book the court... never the less it was fun....
i am looking forward for more....

we went mao mao house to play MJ.... haha... funny nv play money de and i think mao mao and wiwi was falling asleep.... and all thanks to steve wenz and me got a ride to mao's house.... he honk me when i was crossing the zebra crossing and i was super pissed off... lol....

I am super sick of abalone le.... we had it during the reunion dinner at uncle desmond's house... than mum cook during CNY eve reunion dinne for our family "Buddha jump over the wall" and gave me like 2 abalone (those whole piece kind) in the serving... than we had the can abalone which she used 3 cans for the dinner and another for yu sheng.....

1st day of CNY was super busy.... went 2nd uncle's house where i met some of my cousins not seen for many years.... than wiwi came to drive me to his grandpa house and followed by his maternal grandma house and later back to his grandpa and to uncle beng huat house....

we had abalone for dinner again....

2nd day of CNY we had abalone for lunch and played MJ.... than we went to god ah gong house... ah tiong uncle was weird... he was with his gf... when i ask him when is he giving me ang pao...he came and gave me some money and said that he cant give ang pao since he is not married yet... lol...

we had dinner at pu tian Chinese restaurant with dad's family....

super tired CNY. perhaps there is really crisis coz all our angpao had become smaller this year... lolx....

2008-12-27T15:01:00.003+08:00

its been a while since i last updated....

had buffet treat last week for terence... all thanks to wenz for passing her driving at the very 1st attemp.... well not bad to me either at least when we are enjoying the treat i have already passed my driving.... can eat at peace.... lol...

As usual my dear friend ohyiwen was late.... haha... and she still can blame me for not driving her from her house.... haiz... what a friend i've got.... =(
anyway she was abt 40 mins later i think.... but consider early in her records le.... i think she will kill me for saying that... but i am telling the truth =P

all i can say is that i will never go back to pariss to eat again..... apart from the mess and the untidness of the place... but such we cannot expect much since it was a weekend and not those very high class place.... the food is so so... but with many kiasu singaporeans snatching....

the most terrible of all is the grilled chicken.... to my horror there was a long strant of human hair on the chicken.... and a utterly damaged and chemically treated 1.... i can nv accept this.... while we took a picture of the chicken as evident... and we complaint to the manager....

what we got in the end... a compensation of japanese eel fish.... which the manager claims to be very delicious and its not served in the menu.... well at that pt of time i was super pissed off.... and giving me a eel fish doesnt help at all... 1stly i dun eat that fishy thing furthermore u think i still dare to eat ur food ah.....

anyway we had gd time talking.... helping ah mao promote medishield... LOL....

Mao pls plan our next food trip!!!!!!!!

Sembawang shopping centre is open!! went there with bee hong yesterday and we realise that Aston has a branch there... yippie... thou the place is small and alot of shops has not been opened up but i suppose that will be the most hip place in sembawang.... just take a look at sun plaza u noe....

OBHE stayed over at my house yesterday after the shopping which we landed in daiso buying aunties stuff and we watch "forensic heroes 2"..... william stop complaining ok.... u are always not around when we watch the show.... thumbs down to u....

up next Aston dinner on 2 Jan and badminton session on 15 Jan....

2008-11-22T08:59:00.002+08:00

I was so clever that i brought my camera to DnD but i did not bring my memory card... end up cannot take even a single photo cause my camera got no buld in memory... -_-!!!!

anyway so happy cause i am entitled to 0.5 days of time off for helping out in DnD........

here are some photos we took on that day....

2008-11-16T21:15:00.002+08:00

Another view of life.... at different time and path of life there we see different things and have different feelings.... but still they are beautiful... maybe not at that point of time... but looking back it is beautiful....

2 random pictures took at 2 location and timing.... i nv think they are beautiful at the time when i took them due to the hot weather the uncomfortable situation but looking back they are still pretty....

anyway its time for me to slow down my pace and think through... always thou drawing closer will knit us together but that is not the actual fact it just make me realise more and more of our differences and sometimes i wonder if it will last... differences dont always compliment each other but ours never... it always clashes....

anway enough of that... i just had dinner and dance yesterday... once i get the photo i will post them up...

was rather amaze thou... i did not buy any clothing for the function due to my laziness... at the very last min i fish out the old black dress i brought many years ago for my prom nite during sec 4 and i wore it...

haha... still able to fit in... =)

2008-11-08T22:53:00.003+08:00

I AM HAPPY!!!!!!!!!

i want to pamper myself... if i can spent money going overseas than why cant i buy myself something that will accompany me not just with memory but daily....

and i brought my very first luxury bag....

anyway its a super long story... somehow i got no luck and fate with those bags from US....
my uncle did not manage to help me get the bag....

a blessing thou.... coz when i went to Gucci at paragon and saw the pink bag that i wanted to buy initially and it is not very nice....

i saw something tat caught my eye.... and all thanks to Kelly... the sales personnel that serves me even thou i am not those rich tai tai....

proudly showing off my very first bag brought with my own money as an advance birthday gift to myself... the background is not very cool thou.... we were actually on our way to a wedding dinner of my cousin at orchard parade hotel... so as we are rushing out of paragon william remind me that i did not take any picture for my memory of spending 1k plus to buy a bag....
so we simply took the picture in the car park of paragon....

william say that i need to post with my bag.... =)

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO ME IN ADVANCE...........

2008-10-25T20:59:00.002+08:00

found something interesting that can be done to photo... no editing required manually at all...

2008-10-25T13:46:00.006+08:00

I am happy....
i brought myself a camera... finally i have a camera.... no longer using the family nor my phone camera.....
Its the new Canon POwer Sh0T E1 in candy pink....

i wanted to buy it when i 1st saw it featured in the magazine but was wanting to go to Vivo City canon store before buying it...
but yesterday i went to best denki and i saw it there + the sale person was excellent and despite all my expectations and got him running around to show me the different colours camera and telling him that there are scratches and stuff...

some random pictures to try my camera....

the drawing below was drawn during IRAS charity walk n carnival on 31 Aug 08....

oh and there is this interesting feature call photo stitch...

it can allow a few pictures to be put together as 1... and can be done when u want to take a mega picture but cant be fit into 1 shot....

i tried merging 1 pic... =)

2008-10-19T11:07:00.003+08:00

I AM LOST IN THE WORLD OF MY OWN......

experiments shows that i am a loner....
i dun have friends easily and i dun have much friends....
i dun mind going to lecture alone and in fact i sometimes hate to have those ppl who do not have any friend in the class and wants to have a partner so if they dun come for class they have someone to depend on....
these ppl will try to make friend with u and be friendly... they will keep talking and talking and talking to u in the lesson and this make them super irritating.... i rather u leave me alone so i can concentrate on my lesson.....
not that i mind having them as a friend.... but i would really appreciate if they can leave me alone during the lecture... I got nth to talk to them and they kept talking i also dunno what to really and it is super distracting...

enough of that....
i finally have not seen my customers for a week.... i move up from interview to doing correspondence.... it basically means the thing i see and talk to the whole day is the computer instead of my customers... which is good news for me... in fact i hate those days when i had to see them daily... and on an average of 30 per day.... it really sucks....
the only sad thing is that because i only see and speaks to the computer, my allowance is gone....
well once in a while when it is too time consuming to reply thru letters or email and they have a contact no. i will choose to talk to them instead of writing... but still i dun get my allowance...
Although its not alot, it is enough to cover my transportation.... now i have to fork out the money for transportation from my salary.... BUT AT LEAST I AM HAPPIER.....

i am looking forward to my new bag....
uncle nic is going US... i got him to help me buy the bag... cant wait for him to come back from his trip.... (hee i dun even know when exactly he is going and when he will be back)

i would not have brought this bag but i suppose i have to thanks my neighbour....
my dear neighbour when to US last month... and knowing that US has cheap Coach bag i requested their help to get it for me....
the dear wife thot that i am just studying and do not have the money to pay them, so she said to me you must remember to pay me money if i buy for u....
but still afraid that i do not have the mean to pay her.... so she did not buy for me the bag...
then she sarcastically came and told my mum... i did not help your daughter buy the bag, anyway she is still studying where got money to buy such expensive bag....
HAIZ.... what a world am i leaving in... this is sad....

Anyway also thanks to them i am spending more now... the Coach bag that i initially wanted to buy would only cost me SGD$500 now the one on top will cost me abt $1000.....
Will just treat me as my advance birthday present for myself.... after all a reward for myself for working so hard for the past 1 year....

i am so proud of myself for all the appraiser that i get.. =)

looking forward to year-end bonus.....

2008-09-28T20:27:00.002+08:00

wow.... it has already been coming to 2 month since i came back from bangkok....
so busy ever since then....

i have finally complete a term of studies i suppose.... now going to the more intense school life... been having lesson from mon to wed weekly....

i even when for garry housewarming....
so much so much of things that have happened....

of course in between i also went for my driving test and i fail with flying colours.... if there is really such a word to describe....

posted to another team at work and now i handle customers who come to us for discussion thru walk in instead of phone call... frankly speaking it sucks and it drains the life out of me daily... cant wait for the day to do replies thru email or gard copy mail... hate seeing those ppl....

i have 3 wishes right now.... hopefully all 3 wishes can be fulfill... pray hard for me.... *cross my fingers*

2008-08-11T23:24:00.009+08:00

DAY 4....
(this post is not very good... i write it in a rush.... going to zzzz le)

Surprises after the super duper sianz to come back.... haha...
early in the morning must check out... we missed breakfast coz miss piggy could not wake up...
we drag our feet down to check out because we the bus is coming to drive us to the airport at 8.30am... but when we went down thinking that we will be late they are later and i waited so long that i even had the chance to explore baiyoke's golf course....

finally the van came... and my goodness.... the van is filled with PRC.... hmm... cannot make it... tat PRC think the van is his house just place his leg on top of my chair... EEEEEEEEEEE.....
boo hoo hoo... poor me got to stand that disgusting act and irritating kick and movement and their loud roaring voice that even the deaf can hear them.... i survive thru the 40 min journey....

so to reward me of my bravery in tolerating them.... hehe... cathay upgraded us to 1st class seats....
yeah.... :p

the ground staff who upgraded us was so cute.....
she told us sadly that the plane was jam pack... than she told us to wait and called her manager... hehe.... i secretly eavesdrop her conversation....
apparently her manager ask why she wanted to upgraded us... ok i dun understand what she said for the reason... than the conversation continue which i also dun really understand... finally there was some part that i UNDERSTAND with my power thai....
manager: who are the people that u want to upgrade?
staff: a guy and a gal
manager: are the good looking?
staff: "put ing na lak, shui jing jing, pui chai lor" gal cute and pretty, guy handsome *and she shyly smiled at us...

i happily smiled and wiwi said she printed our boarding pass on business class de...

yeap yeap.... luckily i nv tell that vain pot william what was said by the manager and the staff if not his peacock feather all stand up and show off....
*shake head* i think they think i pretty than cannot have too ugly de so nv see his face than just assume that he is handsome lah.... LOL...

my very first time on 1st class seat... taking the boarding pass already super excited... jumping in joy...
than we proceed to my long longing Coach boutique....
remember the prev post of day 3 where i said i was a tai tai... hee
so the tai tai used all her assets and William's assets to buy the below....
whahaha.... my dream bag finally in my hand...

the air stewardess who took the photo for us very pretty.... and the ang moh also quite cute he posted for our photo...

our menu for the day and the wine list...
super nice sling of cathay... just like if u take singapore airline u will enjoy singapore sling....

hee but i was drunk like after 2 slip and i slp thru thr rest of the flight...

before drinking.... haha...
lunch time.... woo... the food was good...

dun look nice but taste good...

and i felt asleep woke up to get a drink but sleep all the way till we landed and realise that my drink was missing...

2008-08-09T13:29:00.011+08:00

Day 3....

woke up late today and thot that we are not in time for breakfast already....

heee.... but still we proceed to the lobby.... to our surprise... this time round they sent us to level 83 for breakfast.... OMG....

when we tot we already had gasping city view at 78 storey they promoted us further...

Not only was the view better the food was upgraded as well.....

ok lah... i still eat the same things as the previous day... but that fatty bum bum, greedy kiasu Singaporean ah huat... *shake head* haiz... no need to say too much u all guess first lah.... than read what i write after the first photo to see if its what u imagine...

he simply comb the whole place de buffet.... he ate everything... especially those that needs the chef to cook immediately de.... ok lah... dun say everything leh... not because i dun wan but he threatening me at my side now.... =( *using force to prevent me from spilling all his ugly deeds* force no use now he crying... LOL

we do not know where to go on a monday morning... so we decided to go my favourite hangout platinum mall... hee... within 4 hrs we finish the raiding the whole place.... and i brought 4 pairs of shoes etc.... so nice to go shopping, the best of all is i dont need to carry anything at all....
=)

no pictures... coz my camera man is overloaded with shopping bags...
oh then we had our lunch after a tired morning of shopping exercise....

and i found my long lost childhood friend....

the A&W bear.....

i went back to siam square for pedicure...

and we went Som Tum again for dinner.... Woo Hoo...

on our way to Som Tum... the national anthem was suddenly being played....

and at the moment everyone freezed on the street... those drinking coffee at the nearby coffee house stood up immediately.. we felt so awkward as we stop in the middle of the passage way not knowing what to do... later did i realise that it was 6pm... and everyday at 6pm they would play the national anthem... haha..

but it was indeed an experience that we will never see in Singapore... i suppose in Singapore even when the national anthem is heard ppl will still continue to walk...
see my favourite chicken wing..... *chef kathy recommendation*

Thou we shop a fair beat in the morning and at the night market... I spent less than $200....

so i was still a rich lady in thai at the last night...

haha... show casing my wealth.... * but dun ask me if i brought the money back... because at the very last moment i spent everything.... see day 4 and u will know why*

these are all my " zhan li ping".... whahaha...

time for packing for home sweet home....

my luggage was full to the brim that i need to use my weight to force close it....

since it was the last night.... i had to visit the planet baiyoke and bid farewell....

planet baiyoke was keen of saying hi to everyone thus i brought it down as requested by her....

while i was standing on planet baiyoke... i had a bird eye view of bangkok night's beauty well enjoying the mallow wind blowing onto me... experience it for urself....

2008-08-07T19:30:00.009+08:00

Day 2

We was awaiting for an exciting day of shopping...
Woke up early to eat breakfast with majestic view, standing at 78 storey high....
it was pretty interesting an experience to be eating and enjoying the city view of the amazing bangkok.... so high when i could see MBK, Siam Paragon....
the breakfast was quite good... got japan food, roti prata, american breakfast, chinese porridge etc....

enjoying my view after the nice wonderful breakfast....

the hotel i am staying in is said to be the tallest hotel in thailand.... so on the 77 storey there was kinda a display hall.... out of which they showed some facts of the hotel, like the hotel was built on strong foundation...
the thingy that i was looking at was part of how the hotel foundation looks like.... the piling for the hotel runs 65M undergound = 22 storey deep....

ops... i tried to push the tallest building in thailand...
but i failed... the hotel is still standing firm....

after the breakfas and some photo taking, its time for serious matter....
we headed down to "Tha Chang" (elephant pier) so that i coule buy breakfast for my god father....
in fact i was kinda angry over certain ppl for breaking promises... but whatever it is it doesnt matter to me anymore... it is no longer important to me... even with more broken promises it doesnt affect me anymore coz i have william....

anyway it was so funny at my godfather place....

he is blurr blurr already due to old age... but he is so cute....

when we reach he simply gave us everything to bring back to singapore... he gave me a box of sugar and he also gave us candle... LOL...

the best of all... he took a bottle of medication and gave us each a pill... he himself also took a pill and told us that it is vitamin and told us to eat, saying that it is good for health and he pop it into his mouth....

the bottle was all in thai so we dont know what tat was... the pills look like medicine to me more than vitamins... haha.. so i gave to william and that silly boy ate the 2 pills... haha...

later did i realise that it was panadol... lol... and tat silly boy has got allergy to panadol so he started having cold sweat...

anyway despite the discomfort the boy still went to siam square with me... so we went for medicure... the lady that help me when the medicure was great... not to mention cheap...

ok the stupid us went to big C and Central word later on.... after much walking we were too tired to walk back to MBK as we were meeting Arm and Oat for dinner... so the clever me decided that we shall take sky train....
heres our tix...

went with they all to MK to eat....

that Arm is a camera freak... simply love to take pictures... so he wanted to take my medicure....

well don't need to mention abt the pic le lah....

i am upholding Siam Paragon...

Bangkok Trip

2008-08-05T17:35:00.005+08:00

4 days pass really fast....
i am back from my trip already....
in fact we only had 2 full days there.... coz the 1st and last day got no time to shop or do anything at all...

DAY 1.....
reach bkk airport around 3pm.... but we waited for the van to come to pick us to our hotel... haiz... and we waited till 6pm before we reach our hotel.... rested and went down to shop for awhile... good things we were staying in baiyoke sky... the roadside stalls spilled all over the place...

headed back to hotel lobby to meet my dear friend Arm.... its been a year already since we last met... happen to know him on my last trip to Bangkok.... i never thought he will really come to meet us but he did and gave us a treat to delicious Thai food...

photo taking after that "ah loy mug mug" ( very delicious) meal at Siam square soi 5 (som tum) .....

we wanted to take a group photo and Arm said he wanted to find a pretty babe to help...
and he seek the help of a lady that he consider pretty... haha... no picture of that lady but here the skill of her photo taking....

* take note of Arm's hand posture.....
hmmm.... i am being assaulted.... hehe... but its all being captured... i shall report police once i am back in Singapore....

its pay back time... haha...

i shall revenge.... haha.... kick u back to Singapore....

*see Arm's arm posture again....

see the repetition???

LOL....

day 2, 3 and 4 will be uploaded in the next few days...

i post day for the trip...

hee... i love the view of the hotel... its 84 storey high and i have been to the highest point of Bangkok.... will load up the photo then and talk abt the amazing experience and view that i had...

2008-07-13T22:50:00.003+08:00

Now in the current organisation, i am stepping towards my big 6 but problem came stumbling down... i do not have the strength to carry on... i do not know where i stand... i always know that in all that i do i need to put in my best effort but it seems otherwise... the better u do the worst u received.... how can i allow such enemy to leave at peace wth me... where are my friends....
its so terrible when friends turns to foe.... why must it happen to me... i trusted u all but.......................
Till now i dare say i have not regret joining the organisation....

i hate what i am doing.... i dont like those actions that i have to do... i dont like to harden my heart against the ppl but its part of my job... i am paid to do it... do i have a choice....
i dont want to be scold heartless, no sense of human touch... i am still a human anyway i have feelings, but do i have a choice.....

i've got bigger dream to fulfill.... my 3 years plan is in mine... where i am now is my stepping stone.... i know this is not the waste land that my dream giver has put me thru even thou its seems like a waste land....

At times i feel like giving up... i know He is there to carry me thru...
i dont mind failure so long as i tried.... thou tired and injured i will not stop here and see my dreams disappear.... i will fight till the very end....

2008-05-03T20:45:00.003+08:00

My precious dad

it was a really really long weekend... i ended my week on wed... it was fulfilling for me? i suppose in good and in bad...
i finally went to pay for my registration fees and submitted my documents which all these while i have been relying on william to help me but this time i did it myself of course with the help of him driving me around...
then we went to pick daddy and bryan up and sent daddy to the clinic as he had a very bad sore throat till he could not eat anything....
that the begining of my busy week... he had medications and rested while we had a mini housewarming for mummy's relative which was plan out months ago... dad came out and entertain everyone he even prepare the chacoal for the steamboat even with all the discomfort he has been feeling... finally when everyone left he was all tired out shivering in the corner of the house feeling cold and breathless... we brought him to Mount Alvernia which thereafter transferred him to Tan Tock Seng as they said that my dad look very ill and need to be warded to the hospital... i immediatly took urgent leave and thank goodness i did... we stayed for about 4 hours for the consulation, x-ray and blood test and then doctor finally decide that my dad had mild infection in his lungs but its nothing serious and he can go home... we took their advise and went back... i stayed at home to be with my dad as the doctor says that if my dad has persisting fever he needs to be sent back to the hospital...
he did not eat or drink, not to mention forcing those big and ugly pills down his throat.... he didnt got better and in fact his fever got worst... we had no choice but to bring him to the hospital again which my dad is still there... and william and i stayed till 3 plus yesterday...

throughout this whole incident there was so many precious experience...
have always fails to fulfill my duty as a daughter and almost very part of my life i have been depending on my dad... he indeed took care of my every needs... that many hours spending with him in the hospital has woke me up from being a daddy's gal... i was the only one allowed to accompany him and i was the only one who can take care of his every need from his drink to the adjusting of the pillow to the blanket... as i stand beside him when he sleeps i realise my daddy has grown old... he has aged alot over the years and my dad is already in his late 40s he is no longer in his 30s... daddy has nv got me to take care of him and he is always the one holding the big big covering over us in all aspect from bring bryan to school to housework to money issues...
even when he was ill his concern us... he kept asking me why i was still at the hospital when it was so late, why i dun go home and he kept asking william to sent me home... then he would ask me why u keep staying here go and take ur dinner / lunch... why u come so early dun stay at home and rest... and he ask if bryan had prepared for his exam... how is reyes...
Daddy is always daddy no one can ever replace his love and care for the family...

on the other hand, true love and ugliness was seen also...
some ass can hack care his dad's health and his car matters more... all they does was to give instructions while they just seat back n relax.... haiz... dun wan to mention abt those ass...
anyway it was really a very heartwarming scene to see the love of the extended family....
mama heard abt daddy's illness and know that mummy is at home looking after reyes thus she cant go to the hospital and she called mummy and know that mummy is worried and crying... she came all the way down to the hospital to see daddy... even thou her own conditions, mobility and that was already midnight... good thing clement accompanied her... uncle beng huat, siew yen sms and called to offered help... everyone was so busy but they are still so every willing... uncle desmond offered to bring daddy to a doctor when he is discharged and at that point he was still oversea...

Although it wasnt a nice thing to go through and it was super tiring to be sleeping only a few hours for the past few days but i believe it has brought our family to a more united level and we know we are closely knitted together....

2008-04-20T22:04:00.002+08:00

yet again i see another life gone just within a time frame of a 3 months from the day they discover their illness to the day they depart from this world...
life is really that
We human are not made of steel... we are just a empty paper shell that can be tear down very easily....
10 years ago was an old friend of my dad... a year ago was my cousin, his was worst he left within 7 days... now its another old friend of my family... from probably 4 yrs old i have seen him until this day... and he was still totally alright when we brought this new house and he came and view the house with us... he even help us with the design and furnishing... and who knows he will just leave like that...

2008-03-30T15:43:00.002+08:00

Todays marks the end of my first week staying in a kampong far away from my hometown...
Simply i have shifted house and have stayed in sembawang for a total of 7 days already....
still not use to the quietness and boringness here... but ironically i love the freshness here and the space....

after a week, i am so ashame to said that i am not done with packing... haha... and i am practically throwing everything into the storeroom but there are still so many stuff in my room...
its still in a mess so i shall not reveal the whole room....

i am quite proud of myself... i pick up an old notice board, drill in the hook into the board, tie the strings, drill the hooks into the wall and hang the board up...

the below is a peek of my bed... and my new favourite pinkie and greenie toufu together with my old fame yong en and yong hui...
i kinda love my room because of the peach white smell which makes it so different from all the other rooms, mum's room smell like lavendar, bryan's room got no smell and that fatty ass has got a super stinky room that smells like shit....

upnext will be showing my wardrob and the relax corner plus my study area....
i am still in the process of creating this relax corner to sit and roll on the floor.... bryan request for it.... he kept coming into my room cause he said he room is super boring....

2008-03-14T14:56:00.002+08:00

i finally blog... and this is only because i got 2 days mc... and i have been sleeping for 1 day le... and i think i shld not slp anymore so i decide to blog today....
i think i will nv enjoy such luxury if i am still in cisco... i remember that time when i was on mc my phone still kept ringing and in the end i still had to go back to office dun even talk abt rest....
than when i was on leave my phone also kept ringing... but now i enjoy higher salary plus allowance and i get the rest i needed when i am sick....

thou i still misses some of the ppl back there...

If in all things there must be a turning point what would urs be?
perhaps we have gone thru so many turning points that we cant recognise the turn....
well maybe we cant see the turning pt in our own life but it would be easier for us to determine the turning pt in other ppl life....

why am i saying all that.... simply because i am super freak off with certain things that has caused a big mess.
the story goes like this... A was a big hooligan bad in his studies and has no accomplishment in life... while for all his life he just keep causing trouble and let ppl get worried abt him... i shall not go in details his digusting wrong doings... but the worst of all is he nv thinks he was wrong and felt that everyone owes him and has been unfair towards him.

soon after he had a gf and they had a baby.... everyone tot he would grow up thereafter but he dun... they gave birth to the baby and perhaps they only see the baby like less than half an hour per day.... the rest of the time they nv even bother to ask abt the baby.... that was still alright... but the worst of the worst was that his gf was a married women who had not divorce...
i wonder how the husband is since he doesnt even care if he wife dun come home and is pregant with someone elses child... so the baby had a birth cert but is a illegimate child and the parents are not married simply because they cant... the mother is a wife of someone other than the child's dad.....

well i really dunno whats the outcome of the story and of the child.... but there was so many chance where they could just make use of the turning pt.... first if they cant afford and give the child a normal life than why create the mess in the first place.... the gal could file for divorce when she had the child... the child may not mind now... but think how is he going to face the world in future.... why bring a child to earth and dun care abt the child.... u think the 2 of u are still young... please lah.... u 2 add up to more than 60 yrs old le... u think u still children ah....

2008-02-24T13:38:00.002+08:00

its been awhile... time just past so fast...
then it wasnt even chinese new year... and now chinese new year is over...
my house i done up... i am getting the hang of my new job....
from dragging my feet to driving lesson... i am loving those lessons back....
everything is simply like a dream...
when will i ever get out of this dream...

2008-02-03T15:31:00.000+08:00

i am officially jobless now....

got some regrets on my last day of work... i did not manage to take picture with my cutie boss...

i guess i really really really like my boss... he is so so so super cute....

on my last day he ask me to come earlier to work.... than he proceed to give me a handbag and an eyeliner... he is very cute....

all i miss of the job is just the people... well although it is not all the people but certain ppl are just gd enough to leave a heavy and nice footprint in my life about this company....

they have cleanse away every thing tat i had against this employment....

the very good thing about my big and small boss is that they are always behind me when i am bully by those external department ppl...

all i can say it that i am glad that i have been there and have got the chance to know all this ppl....

Mr koh is super nice and kind... thou he is very loud and fierce sometimes but still he is so so so so nice... he has no pride at all despite his rank... and he is just like a dad of the place....

Benjamin has treated me very well for the past 5 months plus that i have been working under him despite everything....

Development ppl are great... and everyone of them who is close to wenz and me speaks our language.... all thanks to marcus who first started with our language...

Ghazali always took care of us... and we just had alot of fun scolding him super dirrrty and every other thing....

James who always drive us out to eat and to stock up our supermart before joseph join us...

Marcus always bullying me when i started work... but ended up helping me alot later on... always try to speck in our language but fail... he may be super clever but he is slow in learning our language... even ghaz, james and joseph has success but he still cant really make it....

Joseph was the last to join us in development office but he rulz... super friendly and kind....

kudos to most of the people in my previous employment....

I remember this incident that happens a few months ago... this person sally lee who is a manager... and she really think so great abt herself being a manger... but after all these while i realise that she is actually nth that great as a manager... coz she is a manager of a department tat is a subsidary of the human resource department... haha... anyway she really think very high of herself... and i simply hate her... she is super bitchy... she shout and nv give her respect to my boss at all... while she wants ppl to respect her as manager but she nv even respect a person of director level rank... anyway the main point was that there is this once when my boss ask me to call her and ask her to talk to her on the possibility of making changes to her work and whatever.... and in the end she just blame me for not doing my job... and tell me tat i shld just do what my boss tell me to and dun poke into things between her and my boss... but the main issue is that it was my boss who ask me to interfer into it... she is damn stupid for all i can say... and the worst of all is she told me that she is a MANAGER while i am just an admin officer and she cant allow me an admin officer to talk to her in whatever manner that i did... and i told my boss thats like how she treated my boss... and if she can do tat to director level ppl... why cant i do tat to manager level... and whats more she is just a small fry manager... whats more a bitch... there after she complain to my boss abt me being no manners and not doing my job... but well my boss told her tats what he ask me to do and i have did my job it was him who wanted to hold it back because he was unhappy... in the end she was so fake and told my boss she will go and do it.... SALLY LEE SUCKS.... BITCH.... i just super hate u sally lee... so what if you are a manager... i am not your staff.... if u wan to play manager than go do it to ur staff... no wonder ur staff resign... they just cant stand ur super bitchy face and attitude...

mr koh is GGM also nv like u like that loh... benjamin GM also nv ever treat me like u did... further more they are like my direct boss whereas u are not even my boss.... we are in totally different department.... joseph, ghazali, james, janice they all also manager and no 1 is as proud, arrogant, suck up, bitchy and digusting as u are....

anyway well i dun think i will every cross path with u again... and u better hope we dont... coz the next time we cross path i may be ur superior instead or maybe u are into some offences....

haha.... now that i am out of the company i dun need to care abt anything anymore... i can scold u shout at u as much as i want.... u are not a manager as long as i am concern... and i am not an admin officer as long as anyone is concern....

2008-01-27T11:30:00.000+08:00

25th Jan 2008....
counting down to the days i have left in the current company...
it was a slacking friday for wenz and myself... coz we are going to the zoo to work and to play...
this is probably our very last intrusion exercise that we are participating in....
wenz very first and last....

we left office at about 1pm... which our intended time was 12noon... all thanks to me for the delay because i was caught up in a meeting to hand over some of my work....
so in short we rushed to the zoo with tonnes of excitement....

now introducing all the people involve....

wenz intruded safari.... and it was super funny because somehow she seems to be transparent...
the people just fail to see her.... lol...

me.... acting as waitress for jungle flavours.... super low low low.... =(

so finally after the intrusion... we went to KFC for lunch... woo... and i only than i realise i got a power pass that entitle me to 15% discount at all KFC.... but i am returning the pass next fri le... =(

wenz kinda in a daze coz she was sick that day.... but being sick she also never fails to look at her favourite joseph....

the man behind the scene who makes everything possible for us to play at zoo that day....

so finally we got into the zoo and went for elephant show...

i force wenz to act like an elephant....

lol....

thats my cuttie doggie.....

ops... wenz's hand got caught in the crocodile....

we ended our zoo trip at the polar bear.... and wenz was like super easy to bluff....

she was so tired that she cant walk le... than i keep bluffing her that she has to hurry up... coz joseph was waiting for us... if she dun hurry up joseph will leave the zoo himself and we will have to make our way out by public transport.... haha... and she really believe me.... =)

26th Jan 2008

what a lazy sat i had probably because i was super tired after the zoo trip.... not to mention after the trip i went orchard and shop for 4 hrs.....

woke up super early for my driving lesson and went back home to zonk out for the rest of the day....

in between with work like issuing of reciepts for my dad's hamper and looking after baby reyes....

that little boy posting for the camera....

again i went to my new house because dad says my room should be done... so i can go and make measurements to buy my bed and curtains....

seems like i always visit my new house late at night...

when i reach my house it was around 1 am already....
bryan's room was completely done up.....

and his room is kinda same as mine... dad's room is kinda same as my fatty bro room....

my room is in pink... which i wanted peach but the contractor says the paint is too ex... so they gave me pink instead....

my room is still in the process of renovations... but i like the cabinets because of the colours...

they are super colorful....

the table, cabinet and wardrobe in my room are make up of 2 series of wood the super colourful 1 and the light brownish colour one... and i think they match it quite well...

very lazy to post up pics of my parents room ... theirs is super cool.... they had platform so their bed would be on the platform....

2008-01-22T11:37:00.000+08:00

its already 3 weeks has past for 2008 and my family is like rushing for chinese new year...
lots of transition everywhere for me...
transition of job... counting down to my very last day at work... about another week left....
getting prepared for new job new challenges ahead...
looking forward to my new house... thats a scary thing... imagine i have to move all my things over to my new house... and from then on i am no longer staying in town where just jumping down i can reach bugis village and shop and eat and whatever...
in another 2 weeks it will be chinese new year...
woo... cant wait to go and bluff ang pao... that is like my bonus time... hee....
i have been working for like almost 6 months as a full time staff already...
i wont say i totally dislike working because of the income but there is still something so good abt studying thou without income...
anyway i will nv have the benefits of both... unless i have a multimillionair parents but while that is like impossible... maybe 1 day i will be able to just rest and not work for a few months and just go and enjoy the world...

i want to go oversea this year... mum says she wants to go japan in dec with bryan... she ask me to pay my airtic and she will sponspor the rest... i want to go taiwan with wenz they all also...
gonna be broke....

2007-12-31T12:05:00.000+08:00

i am simply filled with excitement...
perhaps a change of year will bring forth a change of luck...
whatever it is...
i just ask for the best out of everything.

2007-12-30T20:07:00.000+08:00

i cant explain my excitement....
my scallop will reach me really really really soon.... omg omg....
all thanks to mao mao....
yuppie yuppie yuppie...
its supper ex but what to do i simply love it....

2007-12-26T13:08:00.000+08:00

wow at the blink of my eyes the long holiday is over.
Christmas is over, but there is still new year holiday to be looking forward to...
i guess this is the most relax Christmas i have ever been for the past many years....
i remember the Christmas 4 yrs ago, i spend it in the hospital with my grandpa... and i am glad i did because he left me the following day.... 3 yrs ago i was going for some Christmas thingy in church i think... 2 yrs ago was some count down and church event... last year i was walking on the streets of Taipei on Christmas eve and flying on the plane back to Singapore on Christmas...
this year i would have said it was the best thus far...
i ate at chomp chomp on Christmas eve... in fact it shld be christmas coz when i reach there its already 12 plus...
spending the whole day at home on Christmas was simply great... my best enjoyment after working and of course enjoying the choco all thanks to wenz'z mum....
super fat... come to think of it i still have a box of choco which i have not even open it waiting to make me fat...
definitely Christmas is more than gift and holiday that's if everyone know y....

mao must be enjoying himself in HK...

2007-12-24T14:50:00.000+08:00

perhaps i shld say stop telling me that i am not righteous and how i should be righteous...
well i see no righteous in all ur action as well... so it doesnt make any sense to me... you dun practice what you preach than how do u expect the people who listen to ur preaching practice it...
i personally will not follow, alot of things i have seen and realise esp in the recent weeks which makes me realise the reality... in fact even the very nice ppl that i always thought they are isnt the way i used to see them....

am i the one who have changed? i guess i have... and my change has cause them to change....
well maybe thats the case... but i know that my change has not disrupt them or harm them in anyway....

perhaps i think too much and was expecting too much...
maybe they have taken it for granted.... or maybe they could have thrown what i gave them into the dustbin afterall its a gift for a unwanted person that perhaps they hated or look down on...
but i believe i have done my part and i will nv regret my choice to leave....
in fact kinda like being force to leave so it wasnt even like part of my choice or plan...
and well if you ppl think i am unworthy of you all that so be it....you do have your choice of friends as well...

i am happy to be me...

2007-12-18T13:15:00.000+08:00

i do not know for sure,
but somehow along the way to the glamour of the world i stumble and fall.
at instants i wish i could stand tall and firm but it was my wishful thinking.
no matter how hard i try i am simply standing on quicksand, the more i struggle and fight the deeper i will sink.
instead of sourcing for solution to get me out of the mess i started reminiscing how in the world did i ended up in such pit...
it doesn't help the situation and it definitely doesn't get me anywhere nearer to my goal.
i flutter, i wonder and i finally realise i have lost my goal...
the glamour and glitter is nothing but deception that looks really good on the outside but an empty vessel all in all.
Envy others may seems but they never know the truth, there is always Justice in everything.
everything that circulates around the earth are proportional, the gold that increases is equivalent to the deepness of the pit step in.

All i want now is to receive back my very first dream and my very first love.
its never too far and there is never room for regret.
I've never regret my ways for till all i know that it hasn't been wasteland that I've been through.
i have acquired much more solid rock to build my foundation on.
the sea may seems rough but i always know the skills will soon make it smooth.

wow... suddenly filled with emo...
time really had past so fast...
this yr i would say hasn't been seriously a good yr for me...
perhaps to be more optimistic everything may just be blessing in disguised.

i have finished my 3 yrs in poly, went on a trip to HK with 2 hungry friends, stayed in Bangkok for a month, tried looking for a job but simply failed to find and eventually landed up in popular as a promoter.... than came the pay issue with popular... than started working as temp in cisco and eventually being converted to permerant... seen different ppl and tear thru the mask of those ppl to see their actual personality... it was simply terrible... have been so protected by my family all these while... found the important person of my life... left church.... the birth of my darling reyes... My family brought a new house.... there are so much event that took place in 2007 and well finally 2007 is coming towards the end...

perhaps i am looking forward to 2008 for the new begining.
i will be starting 2008 in a new house, a new room. everything new.......

2007-12-04T09:25:00.000+08:00

wow wow wow...
my dear brought me a DS Lite...
omg omg omg... hee...
haha... and i only got 1 game cooking mama to play....

its been weeks since i blog...
there are so much things that have been taking place...
and i can no longer find my motivation to be working in the company anymore...
its a drag to go to work.. but for the sake of money i shall hang on there till the day...
how i misses school.... omg... i cant believe that are words that would have gotten out from my mouth....

office politics is horrible... i am afraid i cant survive... its not as simply as i think and its doesnt work the way i always think it would... even if you cant be bothered or try not to be involve in the politics you will still end up caught inside... or rather even if you are not caught inside all this games that the office people are playing you will end up seeing everything that they are doing so clearly that you see no point in working anymore... it just bring down your morale to the lowest point... nv been feeling so low for all my life... i just dun feel like working anymore... but that would just be me hiding and being an escapist... but thats not the way too... everything is just a dilemma...

the fatty 4 met up again after so long.... lol...
miss everyone and our old sch days....
and i enjoyed being drove around all day... thats so nice...

till now i have already gone for 3 driving lessons...
driving isnt as simple as it looks...
its a terror and horror...
mao i really shld not have thumbs you down when you drive...
but with your skills i also dunno how you pass your driving... lol...
quick share with me your passing tips... did you seduce your tester?

2007-11-08T12:02:00.000+08:00

indeed good rest i had this week....
working only on monday and friday....
wanted to blog us weekend on the terrible things that had took place in my life for the past few weeks but decided that i shall not dwell on all those unhappiness, anger and bitterness... its time to move off... so i shall not record it down to keep it in my memory....
i really felt alot better after putting down every memory... it simply makes my heart lighter... thou it wasnt an easy season to go thru all the denial, rejection and betrayer but i am proud to say that everything has passed and i am looking forward to a better future....

the past few days was a break from work but fruitful enough for me...
Tuesday i went to view my new home.... and i was super happy that my room was totally empty.... so i can do all i want to it without constrain as if there was already fix on furniture installed in the room.... the room was super small but better than none... environment was great... the view from my window down was a running track along a park... it is so peaceful but still i will miss bugis... and thereafter i went to plaza sing to do my manicure and met miss eng... we had a gd chat.... at night i even manage to eat bbq steamboat at marina bay with my family... and there was a funny encounter whereby the table adjacent to us was eating and suddenly their table simply caught fire.....

i whipped up a meal on yesterday... well it wasnt totally a meal because someone realise that there wasnt anyt rice grain in his house... and all our plans was like gone... and he forgot to buy the ingredient tat i wanted... we just make do with whatever we had and cook a simple dish.... than we went little india and i did henna..... yesterday was really interesting... i was a intruder at esplanade... pratically was acting as an artist for the show chitty chitty bang bang and trying to enter into the stage door... but failed....but it was realli exciting to act... especially when the entry pass i have is a real entry pass but it was an ang mo name and the name is fake.... mary greenfield....

abit sianz knowing that i need to work tml.... haiz....

2007-10-27T08:37:00.000+08:00

i never thought i would be caught in office politics...
and never thought that people would play politics on me just because i am a newbie in that world.... rather i shld be expecting such things especially when i am working in big organisation... perhaps its good to start small and start humble.... but y shld i be deprive of the rights to excel just because i bearly have experience and started working as a perm staff for less than 2 month... i just want to do my job... i just need my boss to acknowledge my capability... that is like all that i need... but why out of nowhere there are ppl who trys to boss in and intrude into everything and comment abt me and assessing my work and stuff... that is like none of your business.... who are you to assess me if my boss says i am doing my job well... who are u to say i am not doing my job....
anyway i am truely thankful to my bosses....
guess this is just a black friday for me...
everything just isnt going the way it shld be...
this friday sucks...
and that stupid person betrayed me again...
thats the end... but i guess so that she would have betrayed me the previous time i found out that she betrayed... who ask me to trust her in the first place....
haiz....

2007-10-20T19:22:00.000+08:00

*clap clap*
wenz got PDL le.... =)
went to show room at sembawang today... seen my potential home....
nice place but very small room...
but well at least i would have a room....
and i kinda like the house cause its very nice and new...
and i like the shades of purple that was used in the house...
whats more there are lots of mirror...
always wanted to have a big full length mirror in my room...
but now i dun need if we manage to ballotand get tat house.....
there is big mirror in the passage way from the door to the living room...
and there is full length mirror in the living room and master bed room....
all i need is just a makeup mirror in the bed room......
and everything in the flat has been done up....
if we move in all i need for my room is just a bed and a mirror everything else has been so nicely done up.....
i want to shift to a new house....
hehe... hope we will be able to get it....

2007-10-14T18:18:00.000+08:00

having a sun burn plus sore eye after having fun at sentosa yesterday...
ah huat ah where is my photos?
so stayed at home for the whole day...
and i finally remembered i have never featured in yong en and yong hui so i took a picture of them...
yong en was the fruits of my labour... earn with my first pay... hehe... if u are wondering which bear is yong en... he is the one without clothing...
and the other with clothing and ribbon is yong hui....
for a few weeks yong hui was lying in my office to keep me company...
but marcus, ghazali and james kept molesting my yong hui...
omg... and they are really sick... always take out the clothing of my bear.... haiz...

it was actually quite fun to be working with friends...

i cant wait to go back to school to study...

well hopefully my application will be accepted....

and i am excited... hope that we could get a new flat soon...

i love changes... especially when they are for the better.... =)

2007-10-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

lesson learnt...
point noted at a high price...
my stupidity to be too trusting and actually betrayed by the same old person twice...
should i follow suit and revenge...

2007-10-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

the 3 friends finally met up for soup spoon last thur and they enjoyed themselves with the soup ...
the ultra big bowl of soup which i think i only drank half a bowl...
but mao and wenz finish everything... thumbs up for them...
hehe... and because the last time ma0 aeroplane us so he treat us to the side dishes....
haha.... =) yumyum.... which i think he should treat us more often.... =)

the last time we met was almost a month ago le ba...
and sigh they are like so happy... mao going hk again... wenz going taiwan but what about me...
i am staying in singapore... i am just a poor little girl who doesnt earn enough to go overseas....

days passed so fast... i have work perm for a month already... grad seems like a few days ago...
but i have already grad for so long... and striving out in the society for a while...
working is so so sian... but what to do for the money sake... all i look forward to is sat and sun... i simply love weekends... even thou my weekend is really short and i dun really get the chance to even rest... but it just taugh me how to appreciate rest day i guess...
looking forward to getting my first month pay and phampering myself with my hard earn money...

i go thru work daily until i dun even remember what i am doing everyday....
ask me what i did today... i cant really remember....
but i dun think i am a slacker at work leh...
i think i work hard and really hard... and i would be getting old really soon...
really really miss sch days... i wan to return back to sch....

2007-09-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

i dont know whether the problem was with u or wth me....
it havent been long but it was the first time tat there was such conflict...
it simply sucks and i am just to tired to say anymore least it get worst...
sometime i admit i am demanding and want things to be done my way...
but i do have my own logic behind y i want certain things to be done my way as well...
i am just upset...
perhaps it a super emo day or perhaps because i am too tired thus like this...
whatever it is it just insnt a gd day for me... and guess its better for me to retire early today...

2007-09-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

finally i am able to post abt the sentosa trip...
sentosa sentosa sentosa....
lol... original plan was to build sandcastle and we ended up only building castle in the air....
but sad the picture got so small after loading it from the web link that miss lee load up to...
we took the sky ride... if tat is what it is called... and i fear my slipper dropping off...
and what an amazing timing, bro n wife called and i ended up having the fear tat my hp will drop down... and poor huiyun... she din sit between the gap and the whole ride she was afraid tat she will fall of the seat...

see my super cool nails... which stop me frm playing volleyball... can only seat n watch the rest play.... haha... but all i can say is they are weak... lol.... (laughing out at yiwen and her pose)

after showing off the nails its time to show off the feet....

look wai leng is being buried and we are building sandcastle on her....

haha... and guess what... i am actually the mastermind... but hui yun is so actively helping... and i just stand and watch....

dancing around the coconut trees... just like those bollywood show... hehe...

final pic before makan and we parted....

i love this pic.... remind me of the story on footprint on the sand...

hee... and its wenz and my footprint... memory....

and after tat wenz and i went vivo city coz mao cannot make it loh....

FANG FEI JI.....

oh than i ask wenz to accompany me to get a bear from build-a-bear.....

wow... i havent been going to play like tat for so long... =)

2007-09-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

today is the special day...
12 Aug 2007 i will never forget....
and today marks a month...=)
hehe...
now i got 2 bears le...
my yong en whom i brought for myself on 8 sep...
now a new member my care bear yong hui...
happily hiding in the office now...
going to bring her back to my house le... miss her....
will post up yong en and yong hui soon once i bring yong hui back home from office...

2007-09-05T19:21:00.001+08:00

meetings meetings and more meetings...................
ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....................
there are ppl who seems to enjoy meeting coz its an excuse to get ppl to clear up their work for them and they get to do nth and slp inside meeting....
kinda a gd deal to be paid not to do work but to zzz inside meeting huh...
but i hate meeting coz meeting is part of my work...
and i am busy during meeting and even busier after meeting....
and the worst thing is on top of tat i still have other work... and when i am inside the meeting time is wasted... i can clear the work and when i come out i am just loaded with more work without clearing any....
dun bother to ask me how i felt... coz i feel none... its all coldness and numbness....
its sianzation.... if anything could change than change my heart change my attitude change me....
i am breaking into pieces... can feel tat my bones are all falling apart especially after the fall yesterday....

2007-09-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

omg omg omg omg omg....
as i am writting this i am still working OT in the office...
i was activate to work on sunday... and its only my first week of work....
haix... how bad can it get?
i was abt to leave for church and was ask to come back to work....
and well i had to miss church...
intially told them i will be back in the office at 4 after church...
but they said i cant because they could not get the temp staff back...
and the problem was rather serious....
i reach my office at abt 1.30 and started working until now...
with no lunch nor dinner break at all...
we ordered pizza in to eat lah....
well... the i was so touched... he actually brought food and deliever it to my office for me...
but the funny thing is i just ate pizza and was super full to take in further food....
i do not know what time i will have to stay to for today....
but i do noe that i still have to start work at 0830 tml...
and now we are like waiting for the system to run and see if there is any error and correct the errors so tat the ppl will be able to collect their pay and of course the correct pay...
its kinda not part of my job... but i still have to do.... haix....
the worst part is there is no OT.....
i am working like 1.5 more than normal working hours....
and plus today is weekend shld be double pay... so its 3 times more than more than my normal working day... but NO PAY!!!!!
sianzation.......
haix...
there are still so many errors and i need to get back to work le...
here goes my beautiful sunday...

2007-08-28T19:35:00.000+08:00

whahaha.... okie mao u r forgiven....
hehe... i was in a super high mood yesterday... afterall i din have to work and i get to meet sharon and apart from that i got myself a super nice and cool french manicure at dashing diva... it was expensive thou.... but it was worth it....

zzzz....
i actually left office at 6.30 today....
nv left the timing any later than 6.05 before....
omg... but it was a zzzzz day....
spend like the first 2 hrs of the day shifting the table so tat i would have a working desk....
than went to seat in for a meeting to take minutes which i nearly doze off... and i totally got no idea what they were talking abt... half the time i was dreaming and i ended up missing all the points that was discussed during the meeting...
and i was being said that i have bad english and i write bad minutes... than still complain that the minutes i wrote was too short... well i totally din noe what was going on and i am already amazed wth myself being able to produce a minute... but it was like please lah... i wasnt even coach on what i shld write... what are the things that is required and what is not....
apart from tat what was promise to me wasnt fulfilled.... sianzation....
but i will still endure... i am not a paper doll tat will easily collapse.... come to think abt it... i stayed just because i want to prove that i am not the paper doll tat they think i am...
anyway i was so disgusted by the desktop tat was for me.... totally sucks... there is like tonnes of dust and the worst thing is the keyboard that was attached to it was so dirty that when i clean it there are dead insects body, rubbish, dirt, tibits coming out from that keyboard.... it was so so so so so er.... and the amount of dust caused me sneezing the whole day....
i have refurnish the workstation...
somehow marcus was rather kind to actually let out his workstation for me and he was using a made up table by pushing 2 cabinets together....
anyway he got his new table later on and he was siting side by side to me... so weird... but what to do when there is no space...
the workstation is so much girly and cleaner now i shld said...
and it is so obvious that the station belongs to me... it bears my picture and sharon's... my piglet... and my chocolates and snacks.... but i feel so alone now without all the ladies and gals....
all the ppl surrounding me in tat isolated zone are guys and more guys....

kudos to wai peng... she actually waited for me for lunch while i was still caught inside tat meeting.... so nice of her... she could have gone without waiting for me... =)
thank u wenz for the excel notes.... =)
and million of thanks to ur dad for driving u down to pass me... thumbs up for MR OH.... lol....

2007-08-26T19:54:00.000+08:00

days really past so fast...
i have lost count of it or rather i am unable to catch up wth the forever moving time...
anyway had dinner on friday... it was a nice and cosy farewell dinner which in the end turn sour because of certain issue.... i guess i do not know what to say abt it... and my day ended up 2 plus on fri... and i woke up at 7 the next morning....
mao i got invite u for my prince reyes full month why u tell siew yen i nv?
i invited u n wenz for it.....
yesterday was really tiring.... there were like so many ppl...
enjoyed shopping today... =)
brought a high heel and i am happy...
tml is a break for me... and yeah i am meeting sharon....

2007-08-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

i guess i really need to work hard for my future from this day on...
finally accepted the job offer...
dun really noe what it meant... but for all i noe i am prepared to fight it out...
and hopefully i will be able to see fruits of my labour soon....
its kinda hard to balance certain things....
but i will try my very best to strive a balance in all the things i does...
things tat i need to forgo it just has to be done ba...
but i am glad there is someone who shares it with me, understand what i am feeling and most importantly supports of my decision....
understanding, stable and mature is all tat is needed... =)

2007-08-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

had an enjoyable time meeting up wth sharon...
dearie i really miss u....
and thanks for those chocolates...
i love them...
and we really had alot more to catch up...
i enjoyed ur companion and had a great time shopping...
haha... and i spent alot yesterday... lol...
dearie u r just a sweetie pie...

2007-08-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

i finally found time to update....
my blog is kinda dead already...

i have got interesting things to share this weekend...

i went to watch fireworks on friday... which i was told tat the fireworks was put up by italy...

it was beautiful and we were seating at this nice viewing area outside esplanade...

before the fireworks there was actually this lady tat approaches us and wanted to sell us her sat ticket for the firework festival... well of course we did not buy in the end... coz i was still pondering whether i wan to go and watch it again on sat... thought it would be the same....

well in the end i went on sat to watch the fireworks....

and i have got the ticket to watch it in the floating gallery... and whats more the ticket came to me free... we had a good view of the fireworks and it was simply beautiful... and it was different from the fireworks on fri nite... this time round the fireworks were put up by china....

we took video... when i get the videoclip i will post it up...

awesomely pretty is all i cant say...

thank u uncle desmond for the tic... thumbs down for dad.... supposingly he shld have tics for the fireworks as well coz m1 is the sponsor but he gave it away even before asking if his daughter wanted to go and watch... =(

got a pen from church today... because fcbc is 21 yrs old... i think the pen is classic and its quite nice... liks so high class....
i am super tired... havent been slping early but waking up early... so many things happening... been hearing news after another of the passing on of their love ones... and ppl getting sick going into the hospital... i hope it will just stop... very much wanted to meet up with certain ppl but just dosent have the time... could not make it in time to attend the class gathering yesterday... i wan to meet bee and just want to know that she is doing fine... glad to see that miss eng is fine after the operation...

6 more days to reyes full month... errands to be run on tat day... my job for tat day was already assigned to me...

2007-08-16T20:58:00.000+08:00

happy birthday oat....

havent been a gd day...
feeling sick...
zzz...

2007-08-15T19:49:00.000+08:00

lunch treat by boss for a few team of ppl...
adds up to abt 20 ppl...
all i can say abt what happen during the lunch was...
prince sms princess happy gossip blushing jealousy....
haha... i guess only myself can figure this out....
counting down to baby reyes full month...
lots of things to be done...
expected it to be a busy day for me...

2007-08-13T21:25:00.000+08:00

my chocolate...

omg... my computer is being fixed....

kudos... but internet still could not be connected when i got home...

finally called linksys up and they troubleshoot with me.... and now its done... =)

2007-08-13T09:52:00.000+08:00

my goodness... my dad help me send my laptop for repair...
and they said they need a week at least to help me repair my lappie...
1 week without computer... i dunno how i will survive...
i've got pictures to post up... but no comp to load to...
haiz...
i watched rush hour 3 already....
yesterday we celebrated kelly's birthday....
actually there are so many ppl who's birthday falls on aug....
happy birthday all august baby....
monday bluez....
feeling very tired...
but my ferrero rocher brighten up my day....
cant bear to eat it because of the wordings...
haha but fats must be shared... so i offered it to james and garry...
lol... so kind of them to try and help me maintain my k initial after taking away my chocolate...
=)

2007-08-10T23:25:00.000+08:00

lack of updates....
i had an exciting national day... running away from fire and thick black smoke...
before i see the fireworks i saw fire....
there was so much things tat has took place and eventually lead to me not being able to go and watch the fireworks at marina area... but well there is still next fri and sat to look forward to...
wenz we shall meet there... lol...

i was still wondering whether u will like the present but glad that u like it mao....
enjoyed today eating and shopping and chatting...
lol... its been a while we had done tat...
happy 3.... =)

2007-08-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

lazy lazy lazy....
tired tired....
mao i moblise my friend to help me choose ur birthday present de hor...
now u tell me u wan makan instead... boo!!!! thumbs down for u....
omg... i havent eat today...
yesterday's food is still happily swimming in my stomach....
or perhaps i am gulity of eating too much yesterday mentally curb my craving for food today...
lol...
yum yum.... baked rice, sticky chewy chocolate and jelly beancurd...
sounds super fattening....

tot of eating KFC today de... but after i buy the chicken i felt super full and the chicken ended up in ah qiang and wei kee's stomach...
thank u james for giving me a ride to indoor stadium... =)

2007-08-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

went east coast today after service...
we went out to pray for ppl...
funny... ppl were so scared of us... they tot we wanted to sell them things...
then we went to celebrate miss lee's birthday...
so happy to see bee hong...
haha... this is the 2nd year we are eating crab during miss lee birthday....

2007-08-05T09:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAO MAO.....
hehe... i promise u will get a birthday present from me this year...
haha... after so many years of friendship i think i have nv given u birthday present and i am so ashame of myself.... and i always give myself excuse because we aint close....
now that we are in the same empire no more excuse... so just prepare to receive my present....
and if u can give me hint on what u want tat will be great.... lol...

wenz we were actually at the same place yesterday but nv get to see each other....
no cell yesterday and i happen to have a last min appointment to marina...
and i think u will kill me if i tell u i went there just to see the person eat and have a drink and i went off... i wanted to go shopping de... omg... lesson learnt... shopping can only be done wth gals if not mcken.... lol....
talking abt mcken... havent seen him for ages and havent got news abt him at all since he went into ns... hope he is surviving or our sakae treat will be gone.... hee... wenz it still not too bad for u urs is only a meal... he owed me 3 meals plus a birthday blessing on my 18th and 19th birthday and my 20th is coming.... i have still yet to receive what he owes me... if there is interest for everything... woo.... i would be more than glad....

i always laugh at the hearsay that when someone is a failure in relationship the person will be successful in gambling.... maybe it is true huh....
wenz wenz wenz.... i think we brought toto before for 2 times rite hoping tat we will become million air overnite... and last thur i brought toto again le... and this time i only buy 2 bucks... and i nv even check... yesterday my mum help me check and said i won 20 bucks... lol...
better than none... and my 20 bucks can go into baby reyes fund....

2007-08-02T19:11:00.000+08:00

accepted the fact excited for the new beginning....
the new start was already reaching a week but i only begin to accept it now....
all thanks to the sweet little ppl who know what i am facing and supporting me... =)
FOOD FOOD FOOD....
when are we going to eat?
mao found out abt secret garden le? or want to go indulz?
i want to go and watch fireworks on national day anyone interested?
i noe ryan would have said just stay at home and watch coz i can see from my house...
but i wan the experience of squeezing wth ppl lah...
i have been watching all the fire works from the different windows in my house for the past 19 yrs lah.... and from total view to partial view when raffles hospital, Parco and the hotel was built....

2007-08-01T19:23:00.000+08:00

i came back home seeing dad feeding reyes...
and i offered to feed him... and my darling refuse to drink...
and i realise he wasnt drinking not because he wasnt hungry... it was just tat his diapers was super wet and he was feeling uncomfortable thus he doesnt want to drink....
i always wanted to take a picture wth baby reyes but he is always slping...
so i finally took a picture wth my darling.....

haha... reyes got this blur face... but he is super clever.. coz i took like 5 or 6 pictures wth him by myself and 1 wth the help of my dad... when i was taking the picture wth him i told him to look into my phone... and he really did look into the phone for the picture to be taken... tats my lovely reyes....

and it was so nice tat i always get the chance to be alone with him while everyone was having dinner... and for the past many days i had the chance to bless reyes every evening...

2007-08-01T09:03:00.000+08:00

wenz ah i've got no idea where is secret garden but mao will go and check it out...
he will check out the price as well...
we will go next week....
mao how has ur first week of sch been?
and wenz when is ur last day of work....
will u be going for the dinner this sun?
have deleted certain post because of protection purpose....
now i am totally in love with reyes....
he is the so sweet....
but he always bullys me....
i was changing diapers for him and he urine on me...
and when i was feeding him....
he was playedwith me by pushing the milk bottle away....
and he refuse to open his mouth...
than i tot he was not hungry so i took the tissue away from his neck and i kept the milk bottle...
he begin to open his mouth and ask for milk...
and i refuse to give him...
haha... than after tat he dun dare to bully me anymore when it comes to his meal...
coz he noes i will really dun give him his milk....
and the amazing thing is tat i think he looks like bryan....
i think he likes to listen to bed time story just like me....
but tat fussy little fellow....
was reading toto chan to him and he was just wailing and crying...
then the minute i was reading harry potter he was smiling...
such a darling....

my decision is made and i am feeling light now....
having things in the heart and could not make any decision is burdening to the heart....
and the fact that making a decision isnt hard at all once the piority is set right..
and the heart is pure before the one i serve....
He restored me and the rest all doesnt matter anymore....
tats the how great my saviour is...
i have been very blessed this week...
even as i start the 100k blessing even thou i wasnt part of the 5000 warrior....
i blessed my dad... and yes full stop...
lol...
but it wasnt the end...
the very next day....
my mum was like doing promotion for 100k...
and she asked my mum if she could ash me to bless her wth the 100k...
i want to be committed to be praying for them daily....

i just realise something....
the 40 days prayer and fasting under love singapore was soon to be over...
and i havent even started....
i've got to do something abt it...
seriously something...

was on the phone with someone yesterday and i was touch by his frankness...
the fact that he doesnt really noes me well and he shared wth me his personal stuff.....

bee i am missing u...
how have u been?
we should find time and meet up soon....

coming to say abt meeting ppl...
i wanted to meet wendy lee but till now i have not even arrange wth her....
and i tot we are surpose to be eating with joyce and jiali to celebrate wenz birthday?
and when will tat be?

there is like so much things to be done but so little time to do it...
and of course i dun really feel like going out now coz i love reyes....
and i just wan to spent time with reyes at home...
its my joy to see him grow... i want to be part of his growth....
thou i found it very irritating at the beginning abt his birth and his everything...
but now i am loving him and he is part of my life....
there is nth else more impt than reyes now....

2007-07-31T22:02:00.000+08:00

someone used one word to describe me...
i guess it was a very appropriate word... SNOBBISH....
haha... he was telling me tat was the first impression i gave him....
and i guess in fact everyone in the office thinks so just tat they din noe tat i am actually a siao kia in disguised....
i have decided the date i want to leave work... i just dont feel like working there anymore....
i am tired and sick of waiting...
i just hate that kind of feeling... i do not want to have this kind of feeling anymore...
can someone just give me a break....

2007-07-29T21:19:00.000+08:00

the boy that has caused me sleepless nights.... baby reyes....
the new inclusion into my family and he is my nephew....
he is super cute but he dun likes to sleep at night and only likes to sleep in the day....
i think i shld learn to love him.... despite the fact tat he is always hungry and always cries at night just to get his ah ma to feed him milk....

super disgused by my bro and his wife... its their child and they because they look after for a night and nv get to slp they push to my mum to look after and they could have a gd slp but what abt us... they only care abt themselves... selfish buggers.... everything they do is abt themselves... i pity the baby for having such parents... and thou my dad is the grandpa... but i think he is more like the dad to the baby... because my dads is feeding everyone in the family from my brother to his wife to his baby... haiz... poor dad...

2007-07-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

yet another cold day....
i am tired and cold...
things doesnt may not be what it appears to be...
going deep just causes more cans of worms to be opened...
so do u keep the cans thinking that there are treasures inside and fool urself? or do u open up the cans and realise that there are worms inside and throw it away?
whatever it is when the choice is made do not regret....

i finally saw benne...
because i was working OT today....
first time leaving the office so late... and it funny... for the whole morning i was rather free but no one message me... than when i was super busy and trying my best to rush out so the things so tat i could keep to my promise than i said i would finish everything within 2 hrs OT... everyone started messaging me... lol...

i am officially promoted to aunt rank on 25th june... but sianzation...
tiny mini baby totally great contrast to my fat and big brother...

2007-07-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

i went to the arcade today...

kinda like stress relief but not for me lah... the eating part was stress relief for me...

ok back to arcade... it was kinda last minute... was using msn after dinner and saw suddenly chat wth someone and it happens that he was coming to bugis and well we just arrange to meet....

perhaps the backview will give a clue as to who he is.... wenz remember the basketball machine... haha.... i feel so shameful because my skill sucks.... ryan was like so into his game that he din even realise i was there taking his pic...

then ryan played the car racing game... wow... the whole seat moves and i was feeling sick after a while... the ride was bumpy... and i would nv seat beside him if he were to drive a real car... i realise whenever the car wa bang onto or whatever it is always the right side that i being hit... seating behind him is safer... anyway he was quite pro... and tat ego guy attracted alot of crowds looking behind us... and he was super high because of the crowd... he simply love the attention... he complete all 15 rounds... and i met kelly because she is part of the crowds ryan has attracted.... i lost contact wth kelly for like so long already so i got her number... and ryan ask if i am sure kelly was my friend when i dun even noe her number....

and we proceed for jelly beancurd... and never did i expect to meet another person.... i met eunice... actually i din see her... than i heard someone called yuan ling and i saw eunice waving... haha... we were eating jelly beancurd at 2 different store... surprise surprise... and ryan was laughing because he felt i would not have noe eunice number and he guess correctly....

so nice to meet my old friend... havent seen him for so long... the last time i saw him was during fiona's 21st birthday and now fiona is almost 22 in another few weeks time... and time really flies we have known each other for 4 yrs plus already...

2007-07-23T20:09:00.000+08:00

its so freaking cold today....
meeting long for lunch tml...
going to code what wenz said...
"if everything dun feel right in the beginning, i wouldn't start... i don't know about others... but don't you want to be with someone whom you love and felt happy with for the rest of your life? if you can't see any future... why hurt each other more by going through a year of relationship and finally end it off..."
omg... wenz u gave me a wake up call....
i am in a dilemma....

2007-07-22T20:41:00.000+08:00

i think i am an autistic kid...
miss eng is studying abt autism... and there are 3 very clear signs of autism...
like doesnt communicate with ppl... cannot accept words like wrong, no and will turn violent... and will be in the world of my own and very excited on talking abt the things i like and dun care abt others....

long i finally agree with u tat i am a perfectionist... i always dun agree with u because my perspective of perfectionist was doing everything to flawless standard... but suddenly realise u actually dun mean that... yes i am perfectionist... i dun need everything to be flawless but everything has to be up the the standard i want... and if things are not to my standard i would rather not want... even if it is close to my standard of expectation....

i tot i went to church very late today... i left home only at 12.45 but i still end up getting to church early... last week i met jimmy... this week i met max.... haha... he actually remembered me... we only met once when amos introduced us during the enrolment service....

2007-07-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIWEN....
ok i suposely waited until 12 am then i post this post just to make it posted on ur actual birthday...

haha... i think it was kinda weird because we din interact wth ur friends at all...

and we were like 3 unsociable autistic kid playing on our own...

oh and it was such a surprise to see kian loong there...

oh boy he actually recognise me... and thanks to the 3 of u who tell me tat i am slow when i said hi to him... i din even noe he stood there for quite a while already... see wenz i was so focus in the duty that u have tasked me to do...

haha and stupid mao actually used the ice on the hotdog to throw on me and started the fight between me and tze... and hehe... i think i won because he smells like crabmeat plus hotdog? and well the 2 guys gang up and bully me... wth... and mao thanks ar for throwing the ice onto my face... and makes me feel like using ur shirt to clean my face... and end up being ELBOWED by u...

mao u noe y i said we are only 3... coz i think i will always kanna elbowed or bullied by the 2 of u wth him around... now its wenz and me bullying u... its better this way isnt it.... we shld be love and taken care of not for u to bully....

and ur dangerous watch has scatch my hand again... the 2nd time i see u wth tat watch also the 2nd time i kanna scratch by u wth the watch... pain lah...

tze said he will take mrt to town... but haha... in the end also being coax by me and force him to go bugis wth me... lol... then we were deciding on where to go and we happened to see this tall wedding cake... which was claim to be singapore tallest wedding cake.... ok tats a side track and guess what... we went to prata shop... teh bing and milo dinosaur... which the teh bing doesnt look good lah...

2007-07-20T18:43:00.000+08:00

today's date.... 20072007..... so special....

manicure made my day today....
i was going for lunch at singapore post and i realise there was a new shop tat open and i went to do manicure...
shall go and do pedicure there next week....

i am on half day leave next thursday... woo hoo...
wenz i can go for theory lesson 1 and 2 on tat day.... i wan to go u interested in going?

i finally got my picture from tze....
lol... i realise i cannot see my eyes in the pic... haiz...

2007-07-18T20:42:00.000+08:00

Thanks dilys....
mao sorry lah... i realli tot there is Gelare there... ok i shall admit tat i am mountain tortorise ok... maybe mountain meow tortorise....
and we really din mean to make u wait so long de... all thanks to tat gal in front of us asking so many questions... and i realli think tat in the end she did not sign up for the driving lessons due to som problem....

ok compliments to mao... the watch is quite stylo milo...
but dangerous weapon... coz the edges are so sharp... lol...
food food food... i love food.... i need food.... =)

2007-07-15T20:19:00.000+08:00

I feel that i am all alone fighting the battle...
and i am losing the battle...
perhaps i have failed the test that God has given me this time round....

2007-07-15T17:10:00.000+08:00

wenz please take care of urself and get well soon...
Thank you Cynthia... i like the gift u got from Greece and thank u for tat timely hug...

stupid me... i actually hurt my fingers yesterday while i was trying to lock the door...
and the whole piece of skin on my finger came out... blood just flow and din stop... but the funny thing is now the skin like grown back already and the there are like blood below the skin... ok super digusting... but the picture of my hand is quite alrite... than i put a super cute snoopy plaster on my finger yesterday... and i had to change like 2 plaster within 10 mins... tats the amount of blood... but i think i am like super happy to be hurting myself because of the cute plaster... lol... i am weird...super digusting and i couldnt help thinking abt hurting myself again when i open the door today...

on my ride home from church today i was just counting the amount of years that i had been a christian... it took me a long while to actually realise that i have been a christian for 3 and a half years and it went back to abt 8 yrs ago when i first come across the gospel....

in all my 3 yrs plus being a christian i went thru difficult time with my parents and friends... their objection and stuff and i walk thru them with God and never had i wanted to give up... but now i guess to many ppl it seems alot easier to walk thru this crisis with Him but i found it real hard and i am on the verge of giving up... people claim to understand what i am going thru and tell me what i am going thru is nothing and whatever they claim i am... to me all these word are just noise because u nv been thru it how would u noe what i am feeling... saying is all easier unless u went thru it urself... life in these aspect has always been smooth sailing for u ppl... i wish i could just tell u ppl ur words hurt... give a thought for my feeling... i choose not to talk not because i am in th wrong tats y i din wan to talk... i choose not to talk because i felt that there is realli nothing tat i could say... no matter how much i said u wont understand and i dun wan to add trouble to u since u wont understand anyway...

thankful thou for ppl who doesnt probe me further... simple gesture i am touched... not that i dun want just that i cant... maybe i had not try but its all between me and my saviour... its been 3 weeks and i know i cant avoid anymore... i am trying just give me more time... forcing me doesnt help me it just makes me want to run away further...

2007-07-10T19:08:00.000+08:00

stressful season of life....
where darkness creeps into my life....
i can feel the stress tat is building up in me...
endless work tat has been accumulating at work... and it just gets more and more even thou how hard i tries to clear them... say if i clear 50 biodatas today and another 100 biodatas has accumulated today... sianz....
dilys and doris i am sorry... we might need to postpone the HQ trip to next sat... lets put it this sat first if i need to postpone i will sms u gals... coz my boss might need me to work OT on sat but will only noe on fri so tentitively i can still make it to HQ this sat....
there are still badge claims that i need to clear all the forms and admin stuff... and i cant even figure out what i should fill in those forms... i totally cannot remember what were the activities done for the certain badge work... haiz.... and after the claims has been submit and the badge is out then another trip to HQ?

sianz my personal life has got so much that isnt clear yet as well...
what do i want to do? whats my plans for the next 5 yrs?
i have just open up a can of worm and what am i going to do abt it... just leave tat can of worms there and allows more worms to grow? am i going to find a full time job?
everything sucks... i am sick of my life....

long i am really amazed with u... i havent been in contact with u for a while and u actually know tat i am super troubled and din even come to ask me for help when u needed... i had to know thru other ppl tat u needed help... this is kinda sad lah... but thanks for telling me tat u are always a call away from me if i need and for being considerate towards me... haha... friends are always better... =)

2007-07-09T14:48:00.000+08:00

i am working right now... but i just felt the need to blog to help me process my thoughts...
dunno why i just cant seems to be thinking without typing out some of my processes....
i am still listening to the song "owner of my heart" and its for the 2nd day already... wonder why i did not get sick of this song.....
alot of thoughts has been flying through my head...
i just cant stop thinking abt them and i want an answer to everything...
the conversation with bee has been burdening me...
perhaps right from the start if i had been logical i wont be writting this post today and i wont be having all that irritating feelings now.... I shall be logical from today onwards....
i think i really know what i needed to do already and i have made up my decision....
whatever it turns out i will face the consequences....
read mcken's blog... and i am kinda jealous of what he wrote... how i wish i could write that phrase of word as well... Blessed by the one above...
sianz....

2007-07-08T17:33:00.000+08:00

i am having this sianzation knowing that today is sunday and tml is monday again... y is weekend always so short...
well at least i did had a good dinner and jelly beancurd with bee yesterday...
the good thing is i had a full day to rest today....
haha... wenz i also nv go church today lah... wasnt feeling well too....
but i still felt today was a fruitful day... i manage to do certain things tat i nv had a chance to do and i think it was a divine timing...
i am hardly at home on sunday and i nv get to enjoy the sunday breeze in my house.... din noe that sunday at home just felt so peaceful... of course with whole family not being at home... mum and dad just came back from thailand this morning at abt 5 am... and they just cant sit still at home now they are out to JB to do shopping....

announcement for meow empire...
when are we going to eat again? this week?

i am trying to be emo and listening to 1 song for the whole day....
i doubt anyone here would have heard the song before...

If you think I've let you down
Tried to fool you
There's no need to
If you think
I've played around
Why do you worry
You should know me
I've been true, right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

If you look straight in my eyes
You will know I'm not pretending
I don't hide, there's no disguise
Why you doubt me, that's a strange thing
I've been true, right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

I can't just stand by
watching you walk away
Knowing you still belong with me
Close by my side
You think I don't care,
But forever, I swear
Ooh, my love has grown stronger
And that I can't hide
I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

No one can tell me'cause I know for sure
When I'm not with you, baby
I feel I'm wasting my time
I'll do anything that you want me to do
Ooh, just call out my name, can't she
Give me a sign

If you just give me some time
To convince you
We can pull through
Let me see what's on your mind
I won't change youI don't have to
I've been true right from the start
You're the owner of my heart

2007-07-07T14:25:00.000+08:00

again i am amazed by myself... i survive without blogging for 2 days...
haha... simply because i din noe what to blog... work is the same everyday with all the uncles...
and i am slacking more and more by going adhoc with my boss... which i aint suppose to go coz i am admin officer... going for coffee breaks with those uncles because they say over working makes one ineffective and inefficient...
the company has some fun stuff going on yesterday... so there was free massage provided for us at the recreational lounge... they sell chocolates at cheap price and everyone in the department brought lots of chocolate and it was simply chocolate eating day yesterday and we were indulging with chocolates until we were extremely full and of course happy because chocolate has this thing tat will makes ppl happy and high... rite dilys? and that is when u dun consider the amount of fats and calories that u have just pop into your mouth....

bee i love you so much... you are always a call away... and i can just call u to talk when i needed to... hehe... but so sorry that u had to sleep late because of my call last nite... and u were correct that i woke up late for GB... but it wasnt because i could not wake up... i just din wan to get out of my bed... it was raining so heavily and it was so nice to sleep... i woke up at 7.45 and if i could push myself out of bed i would be there on time or even earlier.... than i receive miss lee sms that she wil meet us at 8.30 instead so i throw myself back to lala land thinking there i could wake up at 8 and i nv got out of the bed until 8.15..... my eyes feel so swollen.... and i just dun feel liks bringing and umbrella out... i wanted to walk in the rain but again i dun wan to freeze to dead or anything...

we had balloon sculpting lessons today and it was kinda relax for us coz the 61st company girls were doing everything for the balloon sculpting... miss lee, grace, doris, dilys and myself were just slacking in front and doing out own balloon sculpting... and i guess we ended up making different things from what the girls is doing....

and dilys got super high after Mr. Patrick was made out from the balloons...
but Mr. Patrick is abit wrong in his dressing today... he is yellow instead of pink....
because Mr. Patrick is dily's prince charming so he gets to ride on the blue dog that dilys has made...
i think doris gonna kill me for the next picture....

miss lee made a purple flower for doris because she likes purple...

haha yes it is a purple flower on doris's head...

and miss lee clip it on doris's head....

and i made a flower for my Mr. Honey...

haha... dilys has her Mr. onion and Mr. Patrick... i shall have Mr. Honey...

wait till i figure out a picture or a character for Mr. Honey i will show u gals...

lol... and so i had to rehearsal on how i should give the flower to Mr. Honey....

a big wide smile?or act shy?

haha... and miss see say i am "zi lian" for taking picture of myself...

whats the problem with tat?
have u all got a problem with me loving myself.... LOL!!!!!

then it was sakae sushi for lunch...

woo hoo... i havent had that for a long while... and we had some talk...

but i tot it was quite funny when we talk abt certain issues...

perhaps i was over reacting as to the issues arised... but i still felt that such things shld not be happening... love at first sight just doesnt make any sense to me.... maybe i really am over reacting... correct me if i am wrong in whatever that i have said....

2007-07-01T22:46:00.000+08:00

its gonna be monday again tml....
abit sianz thinking that i need to wake up early and stuff and there is visit by CEO tml...
but working is kinda fun so it compensate a little....
weekend is like so so so short...
and i feel so helpless....
today is abit different from my usual sundays...
i woke up at 9 plus to prepare so tat i can reach stamford by 11 to fetch the 2 girls together wth doris to lavender and then to church...
havent been up so early on sun already... church starts at 1.30 so its normal for me to wake up at 12 on sunday... and i havent reach church so early for so long... we reach church at 11 plus i think... had enrolment service today.... i feel so tired and moody...
gosh.... i dun even noe what today's sermon was abt.... when i got back to my seats after the pledge taking it was already like i dunno what he was talking abt already... than the girls want to go toilet and i went wth them... and totally miss the last point... well, its a 3 point sermon.. i miss half of 1st point and abit of 2nd point and the whole of 3rd point... i am left with... i also dunno what lah... i shall go and listen to online sermon...
i went shopping again.... and i manage to buy stuff today... but it was super tiring... i think wenz was very tired walking with me for the whole evening... thks gal...
oh u noe what time i reach cityhall... i reach there at 4.45 lah... than while waiting for u i ate 2 bread lah....
haha... i hate that china lady... she sucks.... talk as if i got no money to do nails there... and haha... now i realise i noe her boss... the owner of that shop is the uncle tat owns the cd shop at bugis village... i am going to complain....
i cant wait for us to go eating soon....
or maybe the next shopping spread....
we go the driving centre on tue, wed, thur or fri?

2007-06-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

wenz now i understand y mao and u love Saturdays...
because saturdays is so cool when u dun need to work...
and yesterday was the 1st time this week when i dun need to think abt sleeping early and be afraid that i do not have to wake up on time to get to work...
and i had a duper late night yesterday at 4am....
i think i am an escapist and i will tend to sleep thru to escape for the things i doesnt wan to face... and i think miss lee knew that... and she gave me a call this morning... and true enough i was sleeping....
there was cell group at east coast park today... was thinking of going for beach walks with bee after cell... so romantic.... lol.. but 2 gals... dotz.... but in the end bee nv went for cell so i also nv stay at there lah... left after cell....

wenz i have been thinking of nutritious food as u suggested... and i called up for nutritious food delivery... lol...
actually i dun need ppl to ask me whats my plan or tell me that i have to makes plan...
i have a sound mind and i do noe all tat... i just need someone who will spend time with me and allow me to have a break and cool down my feelings before i think of what i wan to do and stuff...
and i tot i was going to be spending sat alone... ppl are not online on sat nites and i got no 1 to go out with... sadz...
then i saw tze sms... it was like giving me a breather... thanks pal...
haha... and we went to the arcade trying to catch the pig to exchange for the nice Tasmanian devil because we saw a gal caugh it... arg... but we din manage to catch it... sianz...
tze give me back my picture...
since u were so "kind" to me today i shall be kind to u... just post 1 picture of yours...
hehe... tat barbie picture looks super gay and stupid... its very funny....

i think sharon sometimes might drop by here... so i shall ask sharon the question here....
sharon we are readers of ur blog... and who is E? is it Eric? and everything is so suspicious...

oh wenz and mao honeyoat is so so sweet....
i receive a phone call we talk the line was cut off all of a sudden and i could not manage to call back there after... sad...

2007-06-29T18:29:00.000+08:00

u 2 slackers... keep msning during work rite... poor me...

but today i manage to read the blog and tag....

i am super busy today still... the only thing to be encourage is i am amazed at my working speed... the 1st day i took 1 whole day only managing to do 4 pages of the work... and yesterday i finish 9 pages... today not only did i finish 9 pages i did the data entry of other stuff... which they call it counting grapes and i dunno y... and i manage to clear 3 days of data...

BUT there are like still much more to be done...

look at my workstation after some minor changes... and after working for 3 days i realise there is this big big singapore map tat has every street and building in singapore inside the office and it was just opposite me...

today my boss kept coming into the office and he kept saying that we shld have breaks and we shld have small naps while working... and he keep focusing that resting is also part of our work...

the only thing is that when u rest u r not suppose to touch the computer...

super big lah... and so fun i actually waste time to find my block inside the map.... and i found it...

does my work station looks bigger to u now wenz?

they were like so "kind" that the shifted the air freshener in so i will have more space... btu not much different lah... its just tat it is easier to get my stuff coz before tat my stuff was hiding behind the freshener... and with the freshener further away from me it doesnt irritates my nose tat often....

the uncles are saying i am bringing too many things into the place already...

i am changing things as if i am going to work there as a permanent staff... haha...

and the uncles from admin side or logistic side i think provided me with papers, memo pad and stationaries... as if i would need them... i am just a part-timer and i dun need anything except pencil, red pen and of course the computer....

wenz after i saw ur tag on honey oat... the uncles actually saw it lah... and they are telling me tat they have milo and coffee but dun have oat... so since my friend wants me to have honey oat so much they drew OAT on my memo pad and place it on at my work station... and now i noe they really keep stalking at me... i din even dare to full screen the blog and they still see it and they read... tat is worst... and i dunno y they keep forcing me out to eat... and they are super pissed with me coz i keep telling them i am not hungry yet i will go later...

and today we were like super busy getting the office neat and tidy because the CEO is visiting on monday... oh and there is like some encounter of ppl calling us up.... the conversation was like this....

caller: " Sir i work OT 1hr today but u help me write my OT as 2 hrs lah... very tired lah.... " and everyone in the office was like stunt... we aint God and we can give u extra hours when u told us to... we generate the payroll but we aint the boss....

than i was in a bad mood once i gotten home... sigh... i dun even wish to talk abt it even thou i noe avoiding the problem is not a solution... i hate this... it sucks...

2007-06-28T18:53:00.000+08:00

Hereby allows me to bring u a report of kat's life today...
specially for u Mr King.....
another day at work... just when i tot yesterday was busy today was worst...
yesterday was only the warm up... going into 2nd gear today and i dunno how more busier it can get.... but thankfully i am only a temp staff and i can end work on the dot at 6... hehe... when everyone is like still extremely busy... anyway tat department operates 24hrs... the works nv ends...
and guess what happen today... wenz nv morning call me and i overslept... i was so afraid that i would be late and i dash out of the house... i remember i forget to mention something yesterday so i shall say it today... wenz and mao are so so sweet... wenz sms me in the morning and ask me to rise and shine for work and mao too... than todays the end of the day mao still sms to tell me like how many hours left and ask me to jia you... so gd to have such friends....

i was in the office on time... and sianz... work work work... i was just working and working and working... i heard my hp rang but i just din have the time to see the sms... to think i actually forgot abt lunch time... my boss not the big big boss but still can consider boss... they call him lao da... he gave an order and i was drag out of the office for lunch... and lao da treat me to lunch today loh... tats y i was so free to call u and tell u its lunch time mao... but i still prefer to eat alone...

it was work and more work after lunch... than my boss came in and gave me a care gift frm the management... quite nice of them... and its a thermal mug, a towel and 2 KFC 2 piece chicken meal voucher....

i work till the very last second before the clock strike 6.... they scare me at the very last seconds when they tell me they wanted me to do more work and counting of grapes which i dunno what it is... than they realise it was 6pm and they say.... haiz u may leave... we will do it ourselves... hoorray... i ran off super fast... and everyone in the office was telling me u bei pai sei ah everyone still so busy and u say u are going to knock off.... (bei pai sei meaning aint u ashame) and i met one of the office ladies working in the HR side of the department and we was chatting... i never had the time to noe any of the ppl in tat office... coz i nv walk out of the work station except to the toilet... than she was telling me tat they have been talking abt me... because the previous girl work for 2 days and disappear into thin air... they are not sure how long i will last and apparently there is this lady that has been telling ppl abt my presence... she was telling ppl tat there is this cute and pretty new girl tat is now working in the ops room of the cps department... haha... i feel so honoured... but tat is like so embarrasing... anyway counted the number of ladies in tat department today... total of 6 including me... but all the 5 ladies are from the HR side... there is abt at least 20 guys or more... i din get to count lah...

Your precious angel....

2007-06-27T19:10:00.000+08:00

i am kinda upset over certain things yesterday night after i got home...

i would not say i am angry but just unhappy....

after much tot i felt perhaps i was being unreasonable but still i felt i had the rights be be unreasonable....

long and short i just felt tat words without action is dead... i dun wan to hear mere words coz it really doesnt mean much to me...

shall not talk abt it anymore... it just makes my blood boil....

i kinda have fun working today...

was caught by surprise when i went to the department i was working in...

there is lots of sub-department inside...

and i was working around 4 uncles and 1 uncle to be... oh and tat doesnt include all the bosses....

they are also uncles lah.... omg omg...

anyway the 1st thing i got was the dog tag.... ok lah its not tat bad after all coz i dun wear it expect when i pass thru the security....

i was so so so busy that i only remember i had to go for lunch at 1.30pm... haiz.... i was feeling so digusted after facing the computer for the whole day... the computer screen was so freaking big and i think all i did today was to stare at the computer screen and to check my security guard attendance list and i felt like vomitting at the end of the day.... i had to be very careful because every mistake i made is going to affect the amount of pay the security guard will receive... today i was like dealing with 1000 over datas of the security guards lah... the uncles were super lame but most of the time i cant be bothered to entertain them or allow them to entertain me... i was absorb in the world of my own listening to my mp3... than my boss was quite kind... i suppose lah... still under observation... he was telling me tat i need to drink more water so i wont fall sick... and he gave me this air freshener beside my work station... its so freaky lah... the freshener is causing me more harm.... enough of talking... take a peep at my work station...

i wanted to use msn de... wenz and mao now u noe why i told u all i was too busy and cannot use msn lah.... the screen is so damn big and if i switch on msn like the whole world can see what i am typing... somemore there is no msn messenger on the computer.... like i say there is only uncles there lah... than i dun even have the time to think abt lunch, msn is too much of a luxury for me during work lah...

citizens of meow empire can we like go out and eat once every week or every fortnight.... i just kept thinking of food after work and feel so hungry.... i want to give myself a little treat to good food after working so hard.... i havent use my brains for quite long le... finally got to use abit of my brains today... =)

omg omg.... uncle albert just sms me... he just welcome a new member into his family... aunt vivien has given birth and max has become a kor kor le.... the baby has came 1 week earlier than expected date... but i am sure it was a joyous thing for them... uncle albert loves children....

2007-06-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

another day rotting at home... sigh...
i am just too tired and i slept till 1 plus.....
i think i slept abt 11 to 12 hrs ba....
gotta change my lifestyle from today onwards...
will have to wake up at 7am from tomorrow onwards... mao i am joinning u in become office person... zzzz... office wear... i love shorts and t-shirt....
well at least it means money....
i think today is my day....
i went down to open the letter box and there was a surprise mail....
i got my krisflyer card when i nv apply for it... kinda weird coz there was like 9000 plus points in the card.... and when i check the points statement.... lol... it stated that i flew to Japan....
omg... and the 4 flights that was recorded i have nv taken the flight at all...
and the dates of the 4 flight were during the time when i was in Bangkok...
i went Taipei and Hong Kong flying thru SIA but it wasnt recorded...
weird weird weird.... but at least it is better than nth... if i clock in abt another 13000 mileage than i would be able to get a free 2-way ticket... =)
hehe... it was so fun chatting wth mao on msn today....
we were in our dream again... lol... we were like having this japan dream and got super excited abt it then mao's bubble bursted and so kind of him to burst my bubble and we were back to reality.... and well it was all because i was watching the videos we took in HK....
and we begin talking abt our meow empire thingy....
haha... wenz, mao and kat are both meow of course call meow empire lah...
since u so unwilling to change ur mosquito citizenship to our meow citizenship... you are given and alternative... which is u will be 2nd class citizen in our empire... so u gotta bao ga liao....
think abt it ba... anyway we aint in a hurry at all...

apparently today's fondue isnt tat fattening at all lah... we had royal claypot fondue... lots of fruits with mashmallow, 2 ice cream and some waffle... of course there is chocolate lah... or else wont be fondue.... and tats like our dinner so i said it wasnt tat fattening after all.... but but but we went to eat jelly bean curd after tat.... and i walk home leh.... just trying to convince myself that it wasnt that indulging to eat so much because i exercise.... omg... tats like a great lie to myself... lol...

2007-06-25T18:18:00.000+08:00

my prayer request last sat during cell group was to get a job that pays at least $6.50 per hour... oh and with the other request by ms lee that the job will not require me to work on sunday....
and by God's grace and of course the help of my dear sister bee i went for a job interview today... appreciated it bee... even when u r not feeling well u were just connecting with ppl for me and helping me to get the interview... thank u bee... and please take gd care of urself and remember to try my recipe... i used to have swollen eyes very often... so i kinda have a few recepie... but the 1 i gave u is the best... the other tat is rather good is to put the jelly on ur eyes but tat is abit weird lah... but it is also very gd...
ok hope that i will get the job... if not i think i am rotting soon...

i think i dun have much friends... but whenever those friends are bored or in trouble, all of a sudden i will have a lot of friends... it doesnt matter to me anyway but just a tot tat strikes thru my mind... anyway there are ppl who wants to talk to me yesterday... certain ppl i have rejected the invitation to chat and i think it wasnt very nice if the person really needs to talk but i do not know how i shld respond... and i receive a call frm my long lost jiemei leslie... haha... tat boy is in the process of being a man already... leslie ah leslie only remember me as ur sister when u r bored rite... i shall ignore u next time... boy hang in there for another few more days and u can enjoy ur home sweet home for a day or 2 before u go back and suffer... who ask u dun take nafa...

i ate breakfast today... hehe... so unlike me...
uncle beng's mother-in-law came to visit us at our house this morning at 8am...
i was of course woken up... i just slpt at 3am... there goes my sleep again....
so since i was awaken decided tat i shld go and eat prawn noodle since i always wanted to eat from tat stall but everytime when i wakes up the stall is already closed....
and i had diarrhea after tat breakfast.... omg.... i tot i had recover already....
maybe i had not eaten breakfast for too long... but this is really just bluffing myself....
coz after tat i still had diarrhea but i also dun care i ate curry pork chop rice... those jap kind... super delicious brought from Tiong Baru market.... haha... and running to the toilet again after tat... maybe its a gd thing to prevent me from getting fat after eating so much...
and guess what i had breakfast at 8.30 lunch at 11....
and then i had more food at 12 plus....
long called me at arounf 12 and tell me tat he is coming over to my house and he brought food for me....
long funny lah.... u come all the way down to bring the food and go back to work... anyway i think my mum enjoyed the food... so thanks... there was too much food for me already... the food looks gd but i just could not eat anymore...

Sianz.... i am like waiting for clement to come to my house now... and i dun really noe what time he will come... he always come on own time own target basis... and i am like giving him voluntary tuition still must wait till he happy.... sian sian sian...
my stomach is churning again... omg....

oh and i am like chatting with wee hong on msn... wenz if u still remember him... the good friend of ur brother oh ren han... lol... he also in ns already... and he is a soft leg army.... i was laughing at him and he is so proud tat he is a soft leg army... and he said he is going jap... omg... what happens if we really go and see him there... i will laugh my head off...

wenz good news...
uncle desmond called me today....
he was saying that he wants me to find a group of ppl to come out wth lesson plans for the tuition centre so he can do into flyers and start giving out.... and once the licence is approved by the government the centre can start operation....
anyone interested to teach tuition can let me noe....

looking forward to my tml...
fondue fondue fondue fondue fondue fondue fondue....
notice fondue starts with F and F stands for FAT.....
cannot understand y i am looking forward to being FAT....

2007-06-24T17:39:00.000+08:00

i think my life is boring... seriously boring...
i am getting sick and tired of my lifestyle and the things tat i have to do...
i wan to go to the beach wth wenz yesterday but i got cell group....
and guess what we did in cell... we were give a piece of papers and to write down our requirement for our future partner in character, looks and stuff.....
it was funny lah... the last time i did tat was during the sundays lesson....
but kinda interesting because i nv knew i had so many things to write until i write it down....
lol... and well ms eng, bee and me ended up having a fruit platter.... if u are confuse... thats gd... coz it nv meant to be clear... i think only the cell ppl will understand... wai leng is pro... because there is too many durians in our platter she gave us D24 and so on... bee prefer to eat apple and i prefer to eat orange tat explains why we are gd friends... apple and oranges are always together in the fruit family... so wenz whats urs... i shall decode the fruit story for u if u r interested....

bee pls take care of urself.... abit sian today to noe that u r not going to church... but please remember to go and see a doctor...
havent been in church for 5 weeks already i think... and everything feels so different when i go today.... all my familiars are gone... and i really felt uncomfortable with the the new ppl that has joined the cell... well we will see how it goes... God is in control...
i was sian when i tot abt the long train ride to expo... but divinely i met kelvin on the train once i step on the train and i had a ride accompanied by him to church and we just chat...
i was pretty freak out by the camera tat has been screening the area where i was seating... next time i shall find a place where the camera cannot reach to seat... and arg... jimmy say me on the screen and sms me... but i am kinda confuse because he saw me seating near someone frm the screen but tat person wasnt near me... in fact i nv see her at all during service today.... creepy... or is my eyes having problems....
hehe... and i had ms eng accompanying me back on the train today...

dilys and doris enrolment service next sunday... sat there will be no GB meeting but ms lee wants to meet up wth the helpers i think... that was what she told me yesterday lah... and she told me tat we need to send a girl and a officer to take the pledge on stage next sunday during the enrolment service.... *lighting and thunder strike*
u noe what it means... 1 girl and officer = a girl and yuan ling lah.....
omg... can i be sick next sunday....
but dilys are u coming next sunday ah? u got ur church service also rite?

2007-06-23T08:47:00.000+08:00

totally random post....
decided to lift up the mood in the blog today because my mood is lifted up...
hi to all the silences reader out there....
i wonder how many there are... haha... make some noise in the tag board silence reader....
i wonder were the silence reader the ppl i talk bad abt sometimes... what if i am talking bad abt the person and the person happens to be reading my blog...
this is even more random... wenz i think u will faintz....
is mao wenz bf? lol... let the 2 of u answer the question urself ba....
its compilcated.....
wenz i like the mini picture u created... i totally agree with the pic and ur description....
how more artistic can u get?
haha...
long i caught u by surprise yesterday.... only expected my parents to be there to eat rite....
ya i din intend to go as well because i got cell group.... anyway i had curfew so i could not go for cell and with all thanks cell group is on sat this week.... quite funny to be having curfew at my age... y is there still curfew for me if my parents even allow me to go overseas wth friends... well its all due to the glue sniffer that is appear at the staircase... dun even noe there is how many of them... only saw lots of plastic bags and glue... whats so nice abt sniffing glue?
stop asking me if our friendship is just worth the sms because i only sms u... maybe its really just worth the sms... haha... ouch that hurts....
i am like glued to the computer screen recently.... its a dreadly virus.... beware....
back to the main point... dinner yesterday because uncle beng huat's mother and sister-in-law came over to singapore.... 2nd time this week to be having dinner wth them but its for different ppl... i think there will be more dinners soon... uncle's albert mother-in-law is also in singapore because aunty viven is giving birth and of course my sis-in-law is giving birth as well...eating and eating and eating... i am turning into a pig soon... busy busy busy... not forgetting i need a job as well...
i am drifting off from the main point again....
melissa was in a bad mood yesterday... so dad treated her ice-cream and she is so adorable... she ate till her whole mouth was covered with chocolate and they look like moustache.... if u can see it in the picture... than everyone saw her, laughed at her and she begin to cry....
melissa was seating beside me and along the way she ran away and when i brought her to buy ice cream she ran so fast and i had to call her to wait for me... it just reminded me of the camp... i think only dilys and doris will understand... melissa melissa melissa.... but this melissa is my precious gem... she is only 5 yrs old but she will be so sweet and speaks sugar coated words when she noes u r upset with her...

i always tot uncle beng speaks thai after so many years married to aunt and they go hatyai 3 to 4 times a year and he works in thai airways... so i was asking him to do some translation for me as aunt and her sister were talking... but in the end he told me i probably understand as much as u does... haha... he says y shld he learn thai when they can speaks teochew... which is quite true lah... oh and i kept promoting the strawberry shortcake song... and melissa is my supporter so tat song is uncle beng's ringtone now... haha.... not forgetting clement... he was just upset that i refuse to send him another other songs except strawberry shortcake so he also wanted the strawberry shortcake because he just wanted a song....

2007-06-22T11:10:00.000+08:00

dilys i have been listening to the strawberry shortcake song that io ask u to send me.....
so cute.....
send uncle beng koon off yesterday.... dun ask me why he isnt in the picture.... he doesnt wan to be in the picture lah....

jolina is super sweet... her dad brought her a box of chocolate... and she just open it up and share with everyone she sees... she hugged me before she left and said jiejie i love u... when will i see u again... even jasper giving me the souvenir he brought from sentosa so that i will remember him.... my heart aches....

that was like just the start of the day and i tot my day will just get better later on nope it just gotten worst and and whole day was gloomy...

perphaps there was something good about yesterday because i went for hair treatment and got 40% discount... plus a hair cut... but i dun like the new hair cut... i regret cutting my hair..... and i got sadder after the haircut...

there is mango sales yesterday but i dun even feel like going out... i dun wan to see ppl and fake the smile anymore....
i think i need some sleep... i can feel my head hurting due to the lack of sleep but i just cant sleep.... heavily burden... a load in my heart until this is solve... or i can nv have a gd sleep....

thank u bee and wenz for listening to me when i needed a listening ear most....

2007-06-21T09:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACOBSON, LONG AND MAO PA PA.....
i actually remembered jacob's birthday.... oh my gosh... i think its this few days is jaslyn birthday as well but i cant remember which day....omg omg... this few days so many ppl's birthday..... i think doris's birthday is in june also.... dilys when is urs?
haha... long want to catch me off guard again right... i told u to inform me first before u come knocking on my door... u r the one who ended up being surprise isnt it because i wasnt at home... anyway pal happy birthday... enjoy ur birthday with ur gf k...
i cant sleep....

1stly..... i just want to vent out my feelings but i do wan to protect the ppl involve.... bare with me.... i am not very sure if i have gotten myself into a big mess but i do sense trouble for myself...
i guess from now on i shall just keep quiet and not utter a single word...
seriously i am thankful that i do have my sent message saved... i really did not say those words... somehow this are very common things that happen in my life... perhaps it was my fault in the first place... but whatever it is i shall shut up...

2ndly..... i really wonder how much trust we can have for 1 person....
how far can feelings brings u.... logic and feelings can nv comes together isnt it....
everything is just a big big tangled knot of me now...
in fact, kian loong thank you for telling me so much and trying to make my mind clear and asking me to think properly... yes i wont make decision hastily....

2007-06-20T11:04:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i met my uncles and families....
good chance to have dinner with them...
my uncle came back from Dubai after 8 months... haha... and what a joke he is asking me to work there... i think i cant barely survive there....
anyway he brought his son and daughter.... i havent met jasper and jolina for 2 yrs already...
not surprise that they dun even noe who i am... so it ended up jasper being older... he is pri 5 already... he wasnt close to me and just shrink away from all of us except his sis and dad... jolina is much younger... to her its just i dun have any sister and here there is a sister and i like her... so she stuck to me together with melissa...
they are so adorable.... i always wanted a sister because i had 2 irritating brothers....
they will ask me jiejie my hair nice? can u help me tie my hair? i want to be pretty can you help me make up? haha...
jolina, me and melissa...

me and melissa... picture kindly taken by jolina...

i guess the next time i see jolina will be a yr later when his dad returns from Dubai...

i really hope she is well taken care of by her mum...
there is so so much things in life that is beyond our control...

i guess its essential lessons for us to learn to treasure the ppl around us..

2007-06-19T14:07:00.001+08:00

have u ever remember what occasion today is?
in fact i have forgotten until i saw those dumpling on the table...
have u ever had the experience of learning how to tie dumplings for this festival...
i have... it was really fun and to think about it many years have past since i last did that...
it was just a memory to avoid...
i love to eat dumplings not just because it is nice... but every time when i eat a lot of dumpling and feel bloated i can always go to grandpa and drink the hot tea he brewed... to see the smile that is always on his face and say i am a glutton pig...
i wonder why i have not treasured those little pockets of time in the past and taken them for granted...
i have not come to accept that grandpa is no longer around even after 4 yrs... i rather choose not to eat dumpling to remind me of the truth... i rather live in a dream that i will nv wake up from... isnt it too big a price to learn how to this simple lesson...
how good it will be if i wake up and found that this 4 yrs has just been a dream and see grandpa again... can time be turned back?

2007-06-18T15:57:00.001+08:00

i am missing someone....
mao what are u working as?
bo jio me to work... i am like so bored at home already and i need a job for income....
i realise that my english has deteriorate due to the influence of my younger brother...
i cant speak proper english and spell alot of words now... thats bad...
i have been resting but still feeling tired...
i just kept jumping back into my bed to sleep... feel like a pig now... its my favourite animal anyway... oh and i dunno whats happening to me... i kept having diarrhea... other than sleeping i have been running to the toilet... and thks lah wenz still tell me can slim down... yes i really need to slim down after putting on so much weight from Hong Kong and Bangkok...
oh yes... Stupid mao... u tell wenz i siao for what!!!
why sick than cannot think of eating fondue ah... we have been postponing the fondue trip...
wenz is my friend ok... u scold me she will surely tell me de... so stop scolding me behind my back... or i will meow u alive.... (must be thinking what is meow u alive rite? actually i also dunno.... haha... just felt like saying that)
quick tell me when we are going to eat fondue... maybe eating fondue will make me well...
bee, i have known u for a few yrs already... and we have always been quite close...
and i thank you that there are many things and sister talks that we can share wth each other... whenever there is things that happens to u u will always update me...
just want u to know that whatever ur decision will be i will always be there for u...
and please take gd care of urself...

why are there so many things in life that is beyond our control...
i am tired... really tired with the things i see around me... why should ppl be seperated?
i know uncle beng koon misses his sons and daughter... but why must they be separated across the earth? even when he is back he in singapore he can only see his children for a few hours just because the couple has divorce... what kind of world is this when the father dun have the rights to see his own children...
at the same time some people who can be together yet they just refuse to let their feeling be known... there are ppl who are fighting all the way just to let their love ones noe they care and they love... yet some ppl they are can simply say a few words to tell their love ones they love and care yet they refuse to utter a single word... which i simply do not understand y... do u have to wait till ur love ones are way apart and u wont get to see meet or talk to them then u are willing to tell them u love and u care?

2007-06-17T15:24:00.000+08:00

i am so happy to be back from camp....
its super tiring... am back so early because i had diarrhea...
or else will only be back at around 5 plus...
anyway the camp was quite fun... and i really enjoy the time wth the girls...
it was interesting to have to carry and piggy back some ppl...
it all started wth the NG 6000sec... when yanxin and me had to carry a guy for a distance and we choose the lightest and fairest guy... i cant remember his name already... than our lovely sijia had leg cramp and later she fell.... so i was piggy backing her around and my cute little elikia fell asleep and refuse to wake up even when i tries to wake her up and i carry her all the way back from the cabin to the dorm like 500m away plus climbing the stairs... she may be p1 but she is not that light... sijia is abt the same weight as her....
was a great learning experience for me even in this events...
my favourite part was the last night of the camp... woo hoo... we had candle lighting and it was awesome... the pictures that came into my eyes were beautiful... and i nv felt so clever before... haha... dilys still laugh at me when i bring fan... and my parents say i bring fan dunno whether i went for holidays are camp... well... what happened in the end was there was a major blackout... and the place became super warm and stuffy and my fan became so handy... such a clever me...

2007-06-15T01:01:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh i am so tired..
i havent even pack my bag for camp tml....
in fact it is today already...
Happy Birthday DAD....
i had so much to catch up with tonnes of ppl...
anyway nice to chat wth u wenz... Bangkok when we earn enough money...
i miss tat place...
i am so jealous jiali is going japan....
my heart has gone wild after all the travelling...
i just wan to travel all around to any places...
i just feel sick and tired when i get to singapore...
my soul is overcrowded whenever i am back here...
camp from 15 to 17 june...
i'm gonna miss my lappie and msn....

2007-06-14T00:48:00.000+08:00

i am back already.... it was really fun trip after all...
lots of pictures but lazy to post all of them up...
just some highlights for my last week there...

this little kitten is 2 days old when i saw it... there is a total of 4 kittens but this is the cutest... but the mother cat is super fierce and i cant find the father cat...

my favourite shopping mall....

bryan's new friend....

my bus ticket....

subway ride... with the small black chip ticket....

lots of "da pao"....

2007-06-07T19:05:00.000+08:00

I am so proud to announce this… I am a tone or two darker already and hoping to get darker… I am in a dilemma on one hand I am loving this place and I wan to be here for good yet on another hand I miss some people in Singapore but not the place… I loaded some pics… but it takes very long to load everything… so I will load them when I am back.. am at the airport now waiting for my dad to arrive… I want to be in Bangkok for good and go back to Singapore occasionally…
my dad is arrival means that i have to be back to singapore really soon but i wan to be here for good...

Today is already 2nd June…

first house hotel room...my new hairstyle....

Everything seems to have gone pretty fast for me every since Tuesday…in fact so fast that I did not even realise that it is already Saturday today and I will be back home in another 11 days… I love this place a lot more than I my first day here… haha… when did I ever not like this place right? I really did hated this place during this trip on my first 3 days here when I am totally not used to the place and a lot of things happening still I know that I still had a long time here and I am bored here stuck in somewhere that I am not even sure where I am… not that I have got used to the place and learn new things it is really fun… it doesn’t matter even when there is no internet… I practically spend my whole day out…the hotel tat I am staying now is a road across the “little India” here and a few streets away from china town… I have learn how to take the train and I was caught surprise when I slot in the money to buy the train ticket… expecting something similar to ez-link or a card sort of thing to drop out but out came a small black chip… anyway my conclusion is that it is cheaper and more worth it to take taxi than to take train if u match the below 4 criteria
travelling with 3 or more people
not staying near any MRTA or BTS station
lazy to walk
your destination is super near where you are

Why did I say that?
To travel to somewhere far about 30mins of travelling time on car with or without traffic jam will cost you about 100 to 150 and that’s the max… if you travel by train its abt 39 per person… 156 already for 4 person consider that you still have to walk like for 10 minutes from where you are to the train station and again 10 minutes from the train station to where you want to go… and for my case it was worst because the hotel is not near the train station and I still need to take a bus which cost abt 7 dollar… so if there is 4 person travelling it will cost 184 already…. Which really doesn’t makes a lot of differences from travelling on taxi…considering that there is much more comfort much lesser walking and hassle to be travelling on taxi… just that you need to be careful on taking taxi… lots of trickster around especially when they know you are foreigner…

My last Friday to this Monday sucks… shifting around, being threaten and stuff… and all thanks to my powerfully stingy dad we ended in a super deep alley hotel on Friday night… shifted to a temple on the very next day… and threaten by the taxi driver… stayed in the temple for 2 days… which I din even dare to go out of my room because of the stay dogs and cats roaming around so dun even talk abt leaving the temple… called my dad and complain and rally my younger brother to make a fuss to persuade my mum to shift to hotel so we were there only for 2 days… then we went to our God father house on mon which we din stay because it was a little better than the temple but still cannot make it lah… maybe I have been living in luxury and I am too pampered…

On Tuesday I went MBK, Siam Discovery Centre, Siam centre, Siam Paragon, World Trade Centre (now known as central zen r something… cant remember already) and Big C…. all this places are actually very near to each other within walking distance if you shop according to the sequence listed above… from MBK Tokoyu you cross over the bridge and that would be discovery… discovery is connected to siam centre by a link way… and Siam centre is beside Siam Paragon… world trade centre is 10 min walk away from paragon and Big C a road across world trade… anyway if u intend to buy cheap stuff u can forget discovery, Siam centre paragon and world trade… Big C is a one stop place for everything something like Carrefour…. Anyway I went there just for foot massage and to eat… I dun need anything from that place… but when I left tat place I realise that the Watson there sells Tiffa products… yippe… dun need to go to Taiwan, Hong Kong or Japan to get Tiffa stuffs… I think it should be more expensive than Taiwan but cheaper than Hong Kong… thinking of going back there next week to get the lip gloss and face powder tat I use… running out of supplies but no one helping me to get from Taiwan…

Went kao san road on wed, then to suan nam luan and to “little india”… kao san road is a street where lots of Eurasian and Caucasian like to stay in… wholesale place for silver accessories… sells lots of beach wears, fake adidas jacket and local handicraft… lots of hostel and coffee house… all catered for the ang mohs…. Wednesday was judgement day for Thailand political parties… riot was expected to take place so all the 3 places were tight in security… the “court” deciding the judgement was at “little india” 2 min walk from hotel… anyway the judgement was so sian lah… they spend the whole day reading out the judgement by 12 judges… and they took turns 1 by 1 to read… so the session started at 2.30pm and it ended around 1am… and all the tv channel in Bangkok was showing on the judgement… ZZzzzz…. Suan nam luan is equivalent to our padang…. The place usually had pasar malam but due to Vesak day the place had lots of stall setup for donations and story of Buddhism and some celebration stuff… and now it is converted for rallies and riots already… somehow the judgement was out and thai rak thai was dissolved… the supporters and politicians are unhappy so they are doing it there… and I heard from vena that because of this unhappiness the securities for entry into Bangkok from other provinces are tight now…

I went to suan lum night bazaar on thurdays night… super big with super expensive things… and then I took my first train ride in bangkok when I went back to hotel… well, the mrta station was quite far from hotel… about 20 min walk… and it was quite scary to walk back at night when the there is no people in the streets… and when I walk past this alley to china town (it was the only way to go to get back to the hotel) i was being followed by a drug addict or perhaps drunkard… then it was still quite crowded at china town so it was quite alrite… I walk super fast to china town and he quit following me after a while because of the crowd….

Went to visit Girls’ Brigade Thailand yesterday…it was an eye opener for me… Vena the HQ personnel was nice to drive me from hotel… she brought me to GBTHQ… expected it to be something similar to GBC in Singapore or much spacious yet to my surprise it was just a tiny little office lots of things inside and desk for the staff…lol… lets not complain abt GBC anymore… then we went over to this GB company that was in the slump area… they are in area so poor that there is not even a space for the to run their activities and their activities are ran in the open space “some deserted area in the slump”… I brought some coloring and English materials over which I intend to give it out as prize for the company girls that I am visiting but vena told me the company is set up in a bilingual school which means they are rich so I decided to bless this particular company instead… next we went to 1st company… the place is more better than Stamford primary I would say… haha… and miss eng was correct… they are more high tech than we are… most of the girls were on bilingual program and spoke good English… lots of foreigner among the girls… had really fun time playing with them and they were all very friendly… amazed at the energy of all the officers… they run GB in tat company from Tuesday to Friday just to cater to the needs of the girls of different age group… then we drop by a school started by a Singaporean couple anglo Singapore international school just to say hello to the girls there and I met 5 singaporean in GBT… cute little girls and all of them have been staying in Bangkok for really long… 6 years and above….

And for today, I went to chatuchak….
It gets quite confusing after a while… there is total of 3 places in that area… jatuchak plaza, JJ mall and chatuchak market…
JJ mall is relatively new with air con… comfy to shop in but the things are much more expensive compared to those outside… you are actually paying for the comfort and air conditioning… jatuchak plaza is a massive pasar malam with some structures for the shops and it is opened daily and it sells everything under the sun… from fishes to dogs to hamster to furniture to clothes to books to food… you name it they have it… chatuchak market is similar to jatuchak plaza in the things they sell except the structure and some other stuff like it only exist on weekend and as you shop in the market you will be honked and there will be cars moving around the road… and I saw something interesting but I got no hand to capture it down… brought too much things already… this family of 5 brought lots of stuff and there is 3 kids… the kids were too tired to walk… so they paid some stall holder and a push cart was provided to put the 3 kids in plus their shopping bags and this man will just push and follow them wherever they move…
Now that I remember I went to Old Siam as well to had Macdonalds for breakfast… I had samura burger… it’s a pork teriyaki burger… paid 90 dollars after upsizing it… about 4.50 SGD…. You will never get to eat that in Singapore not just because of the price but also because its PORK….
And I had dinner there as well at Swensen but they only serve ice cream… so had bananas spilt cause I can read thai and I cant figure out if they have sticky chewy chocolate… all the chocolate ice cream on the picture looks the same… I can only recognise bananas split and fire house happy birthday… wasn’t full after tat and went over to my favourite noodle stall… it is a stall by the road setup only during the evening time… have been eating tat for dinner for 3 days consecutively already… only cost abt 1 SGD…

It is Sunday today….
Anyway I just realise that I have been sleeping really early and waking up early as well ever since I was here…sleeping around 12 am… which is only local time 11 plus… I usually sleeps at 2am earliest… and hey I woke up at 8am…. 7am local time… having 8 hrs of sleep daily and I eat breakfast daily… amazed with myself… I usually wake up around noon time and I only eat lunch even if I wake up early I never had the eat breakfast….
There is some riot taking place yesterday near the hotel…. That was what my mum said… I wasn’t around to see the riot… actually I wont call it riot lah… she was saying there is some gathering of ppl and rioting but I think it is just the protesting by the supporter of a political party… anyway I dun think it is fun to see such things lah… I am a typical Singaporean kiasee… what if they suddenly turn violent…
After much search over the days I finally got the Tiffa products that I wanted thou still lack of the glitter eye liner… I went to Watson at china town but certain products I want was missing and I din wan to buy because I wanted to accumulate enough money to get the nice free gift…. When on to old Siam to find again this time they have the lip gloss but no powder… again I nv buy… I tot big C will have so I went there today… also because I wanted to go patunam to shop lah… I haven’t shop at the wholesales centre there yet except platinum mall… ended up playing arcade instead and shopping at Siam Centre and discovery centre… well, all because it started to rain and the whole road is flooded and very disgusting lah… I din get my Tiffa stuff at big C as well… they say Tiffa is only available in bigger shops… sad… I dun really care I just wanted to buy Tiffa stuff when I am alone so no one can restrict my spending and I remember tat there is a Watson at discovery centre… so I walk over there… as I walk over.. hehe… I saw Royce chocolate and being glutton and having crave for chocolate I brought… anyway for ur information the normal chocolate here sucks… they taste like the cheap chocolate sold in Singapore but they are not cheap… Mao it is cheaper to buy Royce chocolate in Hong Kong than in Bangkok…
The discovery centre’s Watson never fails me and did not waste my energy for walking over… it has almost all that I wanted and the sales girl was so nice… I am supposed to be getting the makeup bag as free gift but she gave me the umbrella… supposed to spend about 100 SGD to get that whereas 50 SGD to get the makeup bag… the umbrella was a better gift… remember it was raining….
I sms a few ppl to ask abt certain Tiffa stuff… but none has replied me… haha… too bad… if you were to reply me I would have ask if you wanted me to help you buy… anyway wenz I realise u were not in singapore to see my sms… and u replied me but still it is too late… if i do see it I will help u buy lah… the lotion u want is only found in the Watson at discovery centre…

A suddenly switch of emotion today from the previous days…
Woke up feeling sick so din want go out and I got no ideal where I want to go… just wanted to go dream world with my family… after so many days of walking my legs hurts…

I went downstairs to buy food from the hawker next door and I went to buy contact lenses from the optical shop next stall as well… what an idiot I am… I forgot to bring an extra pair of contacts and there is a tear in my contacts… the contacts lenses is ex here… when I went down I realise today is Monday because everyone is in yellow… it is funny lah because everyone is in the same clothing… so when u go into the shop and buy things u dunno who is working there and who the customers are…

Today is already 6th june… my dad will be coming over to Bangkok tml and it also means I am going back in another week time… finally got over that gloomy down feeling… I am not sick anymore after resting on for 2 days… kinda consider 2 days lah… I spend my yesterday morning sleeping in the hotel and the afternoon roaming around big C and playing games while waiting for my mum and brother to appear… went big C because my mum says she wants to go T-restaurant to eat and that is one of my favourite restaurant with my every loving fried garlic squid….i am food driven or else I would rather stay at home… my 2 adorable finally arrive while I was playing bejewels… it was still quite early so we went over to central world to do some shopping… I never realise central world was that huge… the last 2 time i went past there was like just making use of it as a stepping stone to move to other places and it was a fast walk thru the building so I tot it is not that big…. It is bigger than vivo city and people who went vivo city with me before will noe what happen… yes I was lost inside central world and I dunno how to get out and had to call my mum to come and look for me… so throw face… went to take bus to T-Restaurant… a few pairs of shoes caught my eye outside central world and I brought 2 pairs of shoes… looking for the stall where I brought my slippers but could not find… guess I was too early… it was the first time I took BTS (sky train) in Bangkok yesterday… prefer MTRA to BTS…. BTS was super crowded still it is expensive furthermore the train near hotel is a MTRA not BTS… Went Silom today… it is the business cum red light district… and I brought another pair of shoes there from Robinson… Store wide 50% sales…. The shoe is so cute… it has the face of a rat… if u see me wearing it dun laugh at me… wenz, Robinson also got sell Tiffa but dun have the lotion… spent the rest of the day playing pokemon with my brother in the hotel… I think my dad will be scolding me when we go airport to fetch him tml… I have been using the credit card so much till I cannot remember how much I spend already… saw a pair of nike sneakers for bryan at Tokuyu also using his credit card… the make up, chocolate clothings…. Lol… I can imagine what he will tell me tml… I am going to deduct money from you… haha… anyway not studying anymore… he is not giving me allowance so there is nthing for him to deduct… summary of the things I have brought… 8 tops, 4 pairs of shoes, 1 pair of slipper a bag and a shades… I think I am buying another pair of slipper… that should be all… wanted to buy bottoms are hard to buy when u squeeze with ppl and dun get to try… there is really a lot of things to buy but my cash is running low and also I dun like shopping in places where it is super crowded u just get pushed out the streets even before u get to see what is inside dun even talk about choosing what u want and buy…

somewhere at the river... near the temple i stay...

cute donuts from mister donuts... but not nice to eat... dunkin donuts serve better donuts...

on the taxi to go shopping...

2007-05-31T14:29:00.000+08:00

hi...
i am finally able to update...
no pic attached thou i took tonnes of pic...
i am missing everyone...
and if you do see me when i am back in singapore... dun be surprise if i hug u...
i feel like giving everyone a hug... i simply miss everything in singapore...
and thank u loh mao... when i sms u telling u stuff u just reply me wth lolx... since u r already paying 50cents y dun make use of the full message....
everything is good here... except for the few incident that i told wenz tat day when i sms her...
the food here is especially good... and i simply love the food... eating alot everyday.... gotta be on diet when i am back in singapore....
pretty interesting incident... lol...
there is lots and lots of dogs here and everywhere is filled with their shit as well...
bangkok has change alot ever since my last vist during cny a yr ago... but the shopping here is still as lovely and paradise for me.... =)
but i cant wait to be back at singapore.... after almost a week here i have learn to really appreciate siugapore for alot of things....
i have shifted like 4 places every since i am in bangkok... i stayed for a day at first hotel... than shifted to a temple and stay for another 2 days... than shifted to my god father house for another day and now to grande ville hotel... and i should be here till the end of my trip already....
on my 2nd day i was being threaten by this taxi driver... he forced me to pay like 300 to go to my destination... whereby by meter it will only cost abt 100... and he told me if i dun pay that amount to me i will not get to my destination safely....
anyway i sms wenz and mao... haha... amazingly they replied....
wenz rely the minute she saw my sms i think... haha... i suspect she dunno each sms would cost her 50 cents... and mao u took so long to reply because u were thinking if i am worht the 50cents rite....
and here this is my thai hp no. 0849010658...
missing all of u and my dear bed.... it is extremely hot here and i hardly leave the place without tying my hair and wearing shades....
please miss me also... =) lol...

2007-05-25T01:16:00.000+08:00

the grad photos are all up on photobucket...
cant be downloaded to original size...
wenz just make do with it first...
at least u get to see the pic... its better than none...
Jiali and Joyce there goes our 6 million bucks...
i only had 3 numbers... half a number more and i would have had 20 bucks...
JiaLi that place is a "wang di" my dad buy there and won 20 bucks...
and did u realise something abt ur camera... the date is set wrongly...
Bee so sweet of u to remember me and sms me.. please take care of yourselves as well...
i dun wan to come back and see u sick and wear out because of ur sch work...
miss eng thank you for meeting me today and passing me the teaching materials...
i have been trying to compile all the pictures into a video clip...
my skills sucks... so jiali and gang just make do with it... i have send it to ur respective email address... enjoy....

i will try to load it up when the system isnt so lag...
Bye guys...
i will be missing you...

2007-05-24T13:22:00.000+08:00

as promise to jiali and joyce... this picture will be posted up...
pictures taken by the mighty hands of JiaLi and Joyce...

the title of the image is abit sensitive...

guess who is theperson in the image?

going to meet miss eng in another 2 hrs time...

she is super sweet... she noe i needed teaching material to do some teaching in bangkok and she offered me her materials and she went online to look for material for me...

i think this is awesome... i havent prepare anything for my trip yet... luggage not pack... things not brought... wonderful... going to get everything done by tonight....

2007-05-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

woo hoo... finally graduation 2007....

my first trip back to SP eversince the end of exams...

as i was travelling towards SP alot of memories simply flooded my brain....

the very first person tat came to my mind was actually adrian aka robot...

i remember jiali, joyce and wenz kept asking me to keep away from him... but they always ask me to grab report from him as well... haha... and my very deep impression was the time when we had to hand in our individual report and robot send me his... so i edited his and it became my report... in the end i score higher than robot for tat report....

i always ask mcken to draw graph for joyce and myself during MIP lab and pushes him to do report alone wth *ahem* and he always thinks that i am bullying him and begin to hate me...

lol.. while in the end what happen... he always steal report and data sheet from me and always ask me do thing... mcken dun forget u still owe me 3 sakae treat... the 2 bioengineering report and my birthday treat.... u owe me for like 1 yr plus le...

as i look back at all the stuff i did during the 3 yrs... i really felt tat i have been very very mean... especially to a particular person... but i really cant help it... but this person really adds alot of life to our poly life and the 4 of us would not have been so close without her... so all these i shall not talk abt them..

now to the main event of today...

it was a tiring day... havent woke up so early for rather long already...

super exciting day and we killed alot of memory in our camera by taking alot of pictures...

there is really lots and lots of pictures and i have posted a dozen or 2 up for ur enjoyment....

the rest will be loaded up to photobuckets....

jiali, joyce, wenz and me met at 12.30.....

we tot we will need very long to get ready for the graduation as we were told to be seated by 1pm... actually it was not what we tot it was... we din need to wait at all... all we did was to walk into the convention hall where there were lots of mirror for us to check our attire as we put on our graduation attire... it was a super fast process and we neither had to squeeze nor rush as we were quite early... the ceremony only starts at 2pm...

my daddy and uncle desmond came.... hehe...initially they tot they wont be able to make it but they manage to come... dad and uncle desmond was clever they only came in at abt 1.45pm... so they din have to wait very long... lol... they look very cute when they walk into the convention hall together... uncle desmond is short and plump and dad is skinny and relatively tall... they look like the cartoon lao fu zi and da fan shu... haha...

my dad taking pic of the stage after he fails to capture me receiving my diploma...

actually he did capture me on stage but only my back when i was walking down after receving my diploma...

the highlight for the ceremony was actually jiali... the director was stunned by her.... when she went to receive her diploma she gave a twist when posting for the picture... and tats not all... her v daring brother out of the silent gave a cheer... these 2 things caused everyone to burst into laugher....

poor jimmy... he was the very first from DChE to receive the diploma coz he was awarded with merit and his surname starts wth C.... but in the end they made a mistake and he became part of the Dip in marinetime engineering instead.... and later his gf wenney shares the same fate as him... as she was walking back to her seat the sole of her shoes came out and she could not walk...

PRESENTING MY VERY TWO SUPPORTERS....

DADDY

UNCLE DESMOND

the below pictures are taken during the tea reception....

my dad and uncle desmond are super throw face.... i tot i got out of the convention hall quite fast... and when i gave my dad a call to ask him where he was...

he was already out of the convention hall and they had already gotten their refreshment and were enjoying their food... uncle desmond ate quite a bit and my dad is so kind... he even got drinks for uncle desmond when he doesnt drink and later throw the cup away for uncle...

other than being my dad's brother-in-law uncle desmond is also his boss... lol...

while i was laughing at my dad and uncle desmond for being kiasu and glutton...
i saw wenz hiding in a corner enjoying her food... she is also another fast and hungry one...
she wasnt in alot of the pictures and u noe y... most of the time she was hiding at some corner eating of squeezing into the queue to snatch food... lol... i dunno if tat was true... tats my assumption... i din see her most of the time... not sure if she wasnt around or i was just too busy taking pic and forgot abt her...
after 3 yrs... we are now madly in love with joyce... but its time to part... so we gave her a kiss on our grad day...we realise tat we dun really have much friends in poly... we made alot of enemy... so in the end only our dear friend wei jian wants to take pic with us... and we drag milton in despite all his unwillingness... haiz... our dear dear ah lan and omar havent grad... so sad...dad and uncle desmond says they have to go back to work... so they took a pic with me and bid farewell... this is the only photo they took we with today... so glad they came... and i am really thankful tat my dad wanted me to go for the grad cermony... if he had not insisted i would not have choosen to go... omg... my face is so fat...and my dad looks super thin... hehe... notice both of them are not too tall... mao i noe u must be thinking now u think u very tall meh... u also short still dare to say other ppl short... i noe i am short compare to u... but not too short with them... i bended down to take this pic so it will make the look taller...

wth Mr CheahWth Mr Ting

we somehow took pictures wth mr cheah, mr ting and mr edison... our fav mr chida has retired and gone to perth to be farmer.... miss him and all his answers... mr ting never fails to scold me whenever he sees me... when we were doing plant design project i always email him to provide me wth SOS and he says i am irritating... than now when i see him i always tell him lucky he gave me A for that module or i will hunt him... than he will say i "jing jing ji jiao"...

was looking for mr tan (our penguin lecturer), mr koh (shuai gei lecturer), mrs leong(cutie lecture), mrs choo (my FYP supervisor) but din see them at all...

i only saw mr lee(ah fook)... haha... doesnt feel like taking pic wth him at all.... all i remember of him is what he ususally do to me during lecture....

ah fook: kathyann u r very noisy today... did u listen to my lecture?

me: ya...

ah fook: so u mean u noe my lecture well so u can talk? so u wan to answer my question?

me: erm... dun wan lah...

ah fook: no no no... i think u shld... let me ask u a question...

me: than u still ask me if i wan to answer ur question for what...

than the very next day during lecture i refuse to talk since i do not wan to get myself into trouble and ending up wth super tough questions asked by ah fook which i do not know how to ans...

ah fook: kathyann...

me: yes sir...

ah fook: y r u so quiet today? shows that u r attentive... so u wan to answer my question?

me: huh.. me again... can i choose not to...

ah fook: i think it is good for u... so let me ask u a question...

me: wth... i noisy must answer question... than i quiet also kanna....

my best pal Mcken....

my primary sch pal Tim Ler... our course actually share the same grad ceremony...

tats all the girls we have in our class...

i know u must be thinking... how sway the guys are to be in our class with so few gals and they are not pretty....

but i think for sure is we are more sway lah....

we wanted to have a nice pic by the pillar and trying to act very pro by doing weird actions and posing weird pose... but in the end just a sec before the picture was capture we lost our balance... thumbs down...

WE MADE IT!!

the 3 of us with our expert wei jian....

my primary sch pal who happens to be in the same course....

ops... realise it was too dark to see his face...

jaya mama... u need to use whitening product...

wei jian entertaining me by following whatver action i do...

see i have become so small that i fit into jiali's palm...

i am a singapore polytechnic student and i have finally made it thru the 3 yrs...

2007-05-22T20:34:00.000+08:00

you gave me a dream, you lifted me up...
then u shatter my hope...
i am lost for words ....
nothing that i could have done to change anything...
your promise i have not forgotten...
empty or fulfill its all in your hands...

2007-05-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

omg... one-liner...
tze for ur one-liner comment i shall write a few more lines for u...
does that makes u happier?
the reason that i do not want to write about the dinner was that i do not want to write abt my indecisiveness.... like walking so many places before finally decided where to eat....
anyway that was what happen... we walk to many places before deciding what to eat... haha... wenz i will not laugh at u when u cannot make up ur mind next time... because i also cant when it comes to food... i just feel like eating everything nice... so finally we ended in sakae... and tze makes me treat him... anyway somehow i wasnt hungry that day even after deciding so long for the food i wan to eat... perhaps is because of the late lunch i had wth bee, doris, grace and miss lee and because i was tired...
tze does this makes u happy and u shows u tat u are more impt than tat 1 line...
like i said u r so impt that i dun wan to share wth others....
lol....

so my long awaited fondue today....
uncle mao happily went to drive aunty oh and there was a traffic jam near aunty oh's house and aunty oh waited very long... she called aunty lee and complain abt the long waiting time and uncle mao asking her to walk here and there to wait for him...
than aunty oh and uncle mao came and fetch aunty lee and we headed for Golden mile market...
but then when we reach golden mile market the fondue shop was closed... omg...
the shop only operate until 6.30 on mon and wed... sad sad...
mao mao drove his dad's car....
wenz i shall not tell ur "da xiao jie" story... but it was funny...
i wanted to seat behind at first when u all came because i also wanted to be "da xiao jie"...
than u dun let me in so i happily seat infront loh...
all thanks to this car... i dun have to walk and squeeze with people on public transport today...
but the poor car... as mao was driving down thru the car park which was so freaking small... so as the car was trying to turn to move down the car park the poor car kissed the wall... haiz... mao ur driving skills needs improvement... the last time u met me and drove ur car also kissed the wall and it was at parco car park... haha... and this time was at the albertcourt hotel car park.... omg...

no fondue so we decided that we shall go and eat chicken rice and than to go for the famous rochor jelly beancurd....

haha... wenz noted something tat whenever we took pic there is food... hehe... mao u shld not call us happy 3 le... i think call us hungry 3.... lol... realise i am always the 1 who love food and ask u all to go for food... wait till i am back we will go for the fondue...

2007-05-20T20:31:00.000+08:00

Hey Doris... just wanted to tell u that i am happy so long as u like the crown pendant and the necklace... its just something simple and nothing expensive...
it just happen that you want it and i have it... so doris u r welcome... =)
i was still afraid that you wont like either or the crown pendant... but good thing tat u manage to choose 1 out of the 2...

i dunno whats wrong with me... i am so so so tired... my body is aching and my hands and legs doesnt seems to belong to me and they are like beyond my control... the only thing tat i dun understand is i havent done anything tat will cause such muscle ache...
super duper tired and cant move at all....

but seeing my favourite stitch picture makes me feels better... but it doesnt help in releasing my pain... maybe eating fondue tml will help... =)

oh i am suppose to be like taking up all my thai language books and start reading since monday...
all i did was to dig all my books out... the text book i had when i learn thai in sec 1 was still around... tat was so long ago... used to go to emerald building every week for lesson then... and after so many years i forgot everything... haha... i only remember how to bargain for discount and things needed for me to shop... the rest i remember nth...
and did i say i was suppose to start learning and gaining back my command of the language so that i can survive there for 3 weeks....
i noe mum is going to like heck care me after the 1st week and i am going to be moving on my own... and i promise her i will use take sky train and bus if she allows me to go explore bangkok on my own... she say taxi is dangerous.... so it means if i wan to be out on my own i need to have the command of the language so i can ask for direction and noe which buses to take to which places... i dun wan to end up lost there.... i am only an expert in taking cab and tuk tuk... but she says these transport are all not safe if i am going out alone... and today as i was talking to jimmy he told me a story of his friend taking taxi alone in bangkok and was being drove to some wilderness and an accomplice came out with a knife and demand him to give them all his cash and valuable... phew that was dangerous and i dont wan tat to happen to be... i will probably be scared to death or i will be killed by them....
from tml onwards i really have to brush up on my thai... hopefully i will be able to gain back all the forgotten things that i have learn years ago.... i always tot language is a think that once u learn it can nv be forgotten but i have proven it wrong... after 5 yrs not using it everything was gone....

2007-05-19T22:33:00.000+08:00

i tot i am the only person who is stress abt gb to chun out the different things to do every week...
somehow i am not the only one ba... but i just have to say hang in there... perhaps i am selfish to say this but for well you noe we will have more stress and lack of resources if u do not hang on and move off....

yes today is sat and its gb day....
we went to hq and happens to see the girls train for ndp...
lol... and bee and i had great topic for discussion after tat... haha...
tats like my day...

wenz.... mao say we can go for fondue on mon around 7.30pm....
can u guys advice like meet where and the exact timing....

super tired... i could not sleep yesterday nite because of the ranting majong noise frm my brother's room and i woke up at 7am today... oh did i said they ended the game at abt 4 plus... i am so amazed with his pregant wife who managed to seat for so long... they started playing at abt 9pm...

suppose to have a gathering today... somehow i got to meet up with ppl tat i havent meet for ages... ppl like jian zhi, terence, yew wen, jamie and jeff... so funny they just wanted a clear cut line between the us and the 6/1 ppl.... so we ended up seating at 2 different area of tcc... and we ate and left on our own... it was rather sad coz i wanted to meet up wth wai teng but we ended up at 2 different places because of the clear cut line between the people... i guess its also because we were nv in the same class...
but it was really fun... when we ended with like jian zhi, yew wen and me... we went to sing song at this weird place behind peace center... along the way we were like talking abt our pri sch days... when i always hit jian... and we do stupid things like play power ranger... omg... there was so much memories... all the red yellow blue pink black and white ranger was flooding our memories... cannot imagine we actually did tat in our primary sch days... to think we used to be so close in the past and tats has all become the past already... anyway i force the 3 of them to take picture with me... i probably dunno when will i see them again after this time...
lol... i told them i will be leaving once my friend reach... and they tot i am bluffing them... so after we took pic and and i said bye to them they were all in shock and stunned tat i really mean what i said...
yes and i left to met tze for dinner...
it was a fruitful day for me to meet all the people i wan to and had gd time with them...
only regret is not being able to catch up wth wai teng... but i think she had a gd time catching up wth her exclassmates as well... she called me at 8 plus but i only returned her call at 9 plus and she was still catching up wth them at starbucks...

i really love my friends... perhaps i have been a loner and had forgotten the importance of friends for a while... but during this period after poly i finally remember i am not a loner and i cannot survive alone and these bunch of friends have been extremely important to me...